yesterday was awesome! the fireworks was alright, but i prefer last year's. well, i noticed
that, by years, the overall thing is getting bored, nothing much interesting. sat by the river,
waited for the fireworks. while the preview was on going, deedyy & baby kept saying things
that simply cant stop me from bursting into laughter. like 'cek cek dier diri situ, bunyi meletop,
dier pun terkejot eh, melatah ker' - 'dier diri dier tk penat ker, terkentot ke ape ke' -
' comfem dier bangge eh diri situ'- and such.


i just cant stop loving this cicakobeng even if i said 'i hate you'.
but sometimes theres a time when ill be at the point which, i really hate you!
no, not you, but your attitude, dearest =.=
sometimes i cant be bothered to entertain things whereby i know, yu'll get worse if i were
to keep arguing, so ill keep silent. when i dont mind about certain things about you,
doesnt mean i dont care, i do, really do. but my trust on you is higher than my jealousy.
im soo agree with hudaa that, jealousy is a powerful emotion, only by trust you can
overcome that feeling, but to trust seems easy, but no, thats where the problem comes.
im still in the process in adapting with the situation, whereby everytime im outside without u,
ill surely have to answer your calls every few minutes, and answer your same repeating quest,
no, its not wrong to ask this and that, but that shows how much you dont trust me ;(
once is enough, isnt?

dear, when im with you, i know where im standing. but you doesnt seem to give me
chance at all. ever since im with you, my social netwroks is decreasing, im being controlled
all the way, im being hooked, tied, no freedom, till i tend lose good friends of mine,
like shahrain; who encouraged me alot on my studies, and few more.
no, i wont/dont ask for more, i swear. just your trust & understanding ;(

on a brighter note, i know, jelousy means love.
and i know, you love me so much, that everything can simply makes you think negatively.
thats where you'll start to yadaayadaayaadaaa, and makes me feel annoyed and irritated.
but as long as, im patient, i'll tolerate this. but when it comes to the point, where im not
in the mood, and u're behaving this way, especially when things not even happening,
i can be as mad as IMH patients, i tell you. -.-
but no, i believe that everything will be fine as usual as soon as hugged <3
i love you alot, muhammad Suffiyan<3

jamilah & haddy, i really adore your relationship, so sweet and understanding.
happy 2nd monthsarry! (;