everyday life

2010-10-01T11:13:00.003+08:00

Love of my Life.

2010-09-18T11:32:00.002+08:00

okay, loveeee; youre a man already! ;D
i love you, for always convincing me and assure me that everything's going to be just fine, when i feel like the world has collapsed. i love you (':

2010-09-18T02:33:00.003+08:00

MY AWESOME 18TH BIRTHDAY! ;D

thank you, dearest babyyyyloveeee;
Muhammad Suffiyan.

thank you, dearest cousinloveee;
Noor Faizah.

thank you, babes! ;B

Yo babes/dudes;
IM LEGALLY EIGHTEEN NOWWWWWWWWW! (:

XoXo

2010-09-15T23:57:00.003+08:00

I LOVE YOU, SO MUCH!

IMMAAA HAPPPY KID!

2010-09-11T17:40:00.002+08:00

Di Pagi Raya, Di rumah Sayaaaa.

Belom Apape, bilek saye sudah di Attackkk dulu;
Dah macam kindergarten!

SELAMAT HARI RAYAAAAAAA!
HEHEHEHEHE.

2010-09-04T23:26:00.002+08:00

"My Beautiful Angels"

After 3 months of not meeting each other, finally we get the chance to gather again. i miss you babes, alot; like seriously alot dearest. i cant wait to be in campus. we'll be sticking with each other every now & then, go through all those ups & downs, lets prepare ourselves to face our next CA; we gonna dieeee! ;/ but i know with you babes along, ill stay strong. im soo looking forward to that. i love you all, babies.

"The rest; crazy bunch."

"Love Birds in the middle, hehehe"

"The Only One"

Btw,
i hate this boy above. without any valid reason, he decided to work. and of cos, i disagreed! However, i wont stop you, and therefore he'll start working tomorrow. boo youu, i hate you! ;( *take deep breathe* please take care of yourself when im not around. keep your eyes to yourself, you know how much im afraid of losing you again, (& if it would happen again, HEHH AH EH!) i towant you anymore oteh, ;p no la, i know my baby loves me alot, right? ^^ okay next, promise me to treat me and buy me stuffs once you received your first pay, i dont care how little the amount is *evil* i want to get free ticket for entrance. i want to play the rides non stop without Q-ing. hehehe; i wanna be the VIP ;D work safely okayyy hubbyloveeeee, cos i love you! *hugs*

HARI RAYA LAGI 6 HARI, OIIIII!

2010-08-31T22:36:00.001+08:00

2010-08-12T22:17:00.002+08:00

so, would you still, my dear baby? HEHEHEHEHEHEHE. yeaaaay, 2nd day of puase! applause to love, for managed to fast for 2 days. HEHEHEHEHEHE. xoxo.

2010-08-07T12:38:00.003+08:00

2010-07-29T10:14:00.003+08:00

im so packed with my schedule, work and attachment. to the extend that, i was walking home and saw a couple together; laughing away, i realized how much i miss Muhd. Suffiyan. If only i could spent the whole time with you, it would be nice, but i would forget how cute/cheeky to feel missing someone that you feel like meeting him right now! RINDUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU ;(

My Dearest Sweetheart,
i hope youre doing fine there. i miss you so much, dearlove. Do study smart okay, prepared yourself for N; its coming very soon baby. Take care of yourself when im not around, keep your eyes to yourself *wink wink* I love you, BabyLoveeeeee; more than yesterday, lesser than tomorrow cos its increasing every single second of my life. loving you is like breathing, i have no choice. xoxo. *hugs* *smooches*

2010-07-27T21:11:00.001+08:00

2010-07-21T16:11:00.003+08:00

IKEA & GIANT. hehehehehe ;B
NEXT, he's so going to strangle me to death upon uploading this.
SERVE YOU RIGHT, instead of just doing me a favour collecting my uniform form the tailor, he put on as well. SHOCKED TO DEATH! butt awwww, ader passion nak jadi nurse jugak ke? ^^

macam cool je, laki bini nurse. HEHEHE. ^^

2010-07-19T08:58:00.005+08:00

"How people treat you is their karma, but how you react is yours."

did i ever mention that i blame you over what has happened? or did i even say it so? as far as i could remember. no, i didnt. its all about your own assumption. but yes, i admit. i still cant get over it, not even the slightest thought. i didnt blame you, neither him. but myself, who just couldnt get over things. you wont understand, he wont understand, they wont understand, none will. one day maybe, one day when karma hits you back straight on your face then you'll know how horrible it feels.

& pls, excuse me, its not about stalking, but its about information. it wasnt me, but people who came to me saying things, and can you ever imagine how it feels when youre trying so hard to forget everything, but things just keep haunting you. how it feels to forgive someone but you just couldnt forget things that hurts you badly, bringing you upon hating him instead. how hurtful it is until you thought of sleeping and wake up knowing nothing happened before. you wont understand, until you feel it, then you'll know it.

no, he's not selfish. he's not heartless. dont drag him in, he's only doing his part. he's been a part of you, once, or maybe twice. you should know him then. he would do anything just to make things better. whats the big deal deleting? its easier right, so you wont remember, i wont remember, people will just shut their mouth. why make a simple request leads to a big fuss? and yes, i am taking care of him, thats why im protecting him from your accusation.

me & my attitude? how about, you & yours, princesses? ^^
and babe, enough of calling me s*ut, without even a simple sorry, now your friend helps you to add up another word. when this nenek tuemu here, never call you, nor your friends, by any names. matured enough? oteh! ^^

i hope this is clear enough for you & your friends. so now, its better for you and your friends to focus on N levels, good luck! chill, dont live in assumption and in denial, it will make things worst. im sorry if theres anything that hurts you. and on behalf of suffiyan as well. as a girl, i thought you could at least understand how it feels. but its okay, as i mention, maybe one day when it happens to you, then you'll get to feel how disastrous the feeling is. takecare~

"Drama never ends and haters are all the same, they smile in front of your face but spit on your name."

2010-07-19T08:55:00.001+08:00

Cheer up syg, we said we'll go through this hardship and pain together right? When i went through the hard days w/o Peah, u were there, keeping me strong. Now, why aren't u applying it on yourself? Come on, we'll stay strong together! Why let that girl ruin your mood with Yan, why let your heart ache bcos of her? I know u hate her, i hate my 'her' too. But we can't erase the part when shit happens. There is only 2 roads in life; right and wrong. The wrong - it starts out easy and carefree, but the ending is disastrous. The right - starts out with many obstacles and bumps, but it was a happy ending. So yes, im sure u've chose the right road. Why let her ruin your 2 years of courtship with Yan? This journey of love u're having with Yan; just let things take its place. I know u love Yan more than anybody else, i know he loves u more than anybody else too, that's all that matters for now. U gotta trust him, u have to! U have to force yourself not to remember that incident. U can do it, we both can do it! And don't think of revenge; cos that's when karma will strike again! Kite kene redha, accept things as it is. I and Peah will always be here, for u and Yan, just like when u both were there for me. We love 'foursome', don't we? And double date, And we love "peypeooow" together! So yes, u & me, we gotta stay strong alright! Don't let that girl affect us, cos i know u don't wanna fight this kind of war. Victory is yours, don't think too much about it alright! Love you, big hug ♥

2010-07-18T01:20:00.003+08:00

Aliyana & Affendi's 1st Prince~

The soon-to-be in 7 years time? HEHEHEEH! ;D

2010-07-17T13:42:00.002+08:00

forever mentel boy just cut his hair, and regret. tsk. so he said he wont take off his cap until his hair grow again. crazzyyy~ so yesterday went to causeway for movie date after work. instead of despicable me, we watched inception. woooo~ EHEEEEEM. WOODLANDS, been teasing him all the way. "youre getting on my nerve ah b!" hahaahhaah. serve you right! ;D afterwards, thought of visiting his new born nephew, but postponed to today, together with his family. so, lets siap-ing nowww!

2010-07-11T23:39:00.004+08:00

"The light in my life is not you, but your love."

Nabins at Sultan gate is damn awesome, really. been hearing about it but didnt had the chance to go, until last weekend. with baby and dearest cousin, we went sheeshaa. HEHEHE. what else, the love requested as he missed going with his friends -_- and also, claimed that he wants to release tension. overall, i had a good time there. the place very cosy, the foods are delicious, everythings great! with the loves along, what else do you expect ;B

-My forever mentel boy, love you! xoxo.

2010-07-08T09:53:00.004+08:00

"No matter What Goes Wrong, We'll Always Stay Strong."

"Dear 7th of July,

you marked a very special date every year, the highlight of the year! two years back, its the day our eyes met, our hearts combined and when everything started. we're two now, Rhi-yaan! (:

Muhd Suffiyan Saffii,the man of my life!

i dont know that someone who randomly added me at friendster would be someone who's very special to me, until i knew you. i dont know that a simple conversation could make me attracted to you until i chat you. i dont know that we could fall in love without meeting each other until i fall for you. i dont know that the power of love is strong, until i have you. nothing beats the fear of losing you!

Thank you For everything, especially your never ending love. xoxo.

A solid two years, we've been going through a lot things together. the sweetest to the bitter ones. i remember when i once cheated on you, i choosed another guy over you. A guy who's nothing compared to you, but i just dont know why. (?!) you broke down, and be a total different person. i was so heartless to leave you aimlessly, yet you still hold onto me.
and just recent, it was my turn to feel how you felt before. although the pain is very deep, i tried to hold on like you did before. when everything seems impossible, you came back to tell me, no its not. you hold me tightly again just like before and get us back into the path. (too bad, both happened around your birthday period, HAHAHA. bad date! ;p)

we learnt alot from the past, which makes us getting stronger now. everyone needs a break, to make them think wiser. and i need you, to accompany me through out this life journey. i love you, xoxo.

"i want those smile to stay forever, always."

2010-07-05T00:25:00.005+08:00

Dear You,
thanks for everything. i love you, no one will love you like i do. xoxo. eh baby, 2 more days! HEHE!

Sayaaang Sayaaaang Selaluuuuuuu! *huggies*

2010-07-01T10:38:00.003+08:00

BLAZE CAMP 1 is a unique experience that i will never forget. there are a lot of lesson learnt through out the camp. about ourselves and also people around us. being a leader is not easy at all! but its not impossible though, its all about perseverance, hard working, controlling our emotions, having faith, choosing the right choice, always believe. the power of believe holds a very huge impact. even myself couldn't believe that i could stand straight and hold a paper which written with my goals all over, with my arms pointing straight forward for SIXTY SIX MINUTES. yes, i cried, i felt like giving up, i perspired a lot, but i just don't want to give up achieving my goals, despite the ache and tiredness, i went through it, and i managed to make it all the way. at sentosa, under the hot scorching sun, we all ran here and there to find clues, to finish up the tasks given, to end the race. we could have give up half way when we really couldnt take it anymore, running one end to another, but we choose not to. we continued all the way until we make it to the finishing line. During the boat water bom game, its all about not giving up. when we almost reaching the finish line with all our hardworks suddenly people bom us, then we have to restart back. pftttt. but end up, we managed to be the 2nd team though. THERE ARE A LOT MORE IF I WERE TO ELABORATE. ive learnt a lot from this camp, seriously.

"LOVE YOURSELF FIRST, BEFORE YOU LOVE SOMEBODY ELSE"

2010-07-01T10:04:00.003+08:00

Suffiyan's eye candies! ;B
i know you miss them a lot right, we shall bring them out soon okay! no more kite-flying please, i dont want to be like 'mak ayam' to kejar them all over. then you & asfa' sepakat to laugh at me. i miss those, pls. and baby, kakak just showed me pictures of their new rooms, omg pls, i want dannish&ellysha's rooms to be like theirs also, can? ;D

asfa's; forever transformer!

afina's; forever disney princess.

EHEHEHEEH. i nak jugaaaaaaaaak! hahha! okay enough, bye!

2010-06-27T11:27:00.002+08:00

we were still young back then when we know each other. to worst, through friendster?! HAHA. everything was so unexpected, that we've reached this far. i never knew that you would be someone special like who you are now to me. the journey was so wonderful that i feel like going back the ride again, and erase the bad ones. cos now, its damn hard for me now to get over things, its all still lingering. and i can simply broke down. i miss those happiness, those days where theres nothing comes in between us, where all the routes seem very smooth, where the clouds always shine. i miss those time.

"Mistakes can be forgiven. But the incident can never be forgotten; but we can choose to put it aside & learn from it. Why choose to hate than to love? If HE can forgive his people, his people have no right to not forgive each other. Learn to love and put aside the mistakes they did, cause what's life w/o it."

i love you, too much indeed that i can just easily put aside all the egos aside. i dont wanna care. your assurance, what we've been through, how we started, it all make me stronger to carry on. the wound needs time to heal. all matter now, youre always there when i need you. your never ending assurance keep my faith going. your kisses, your hugs keep me warmth, telling me everything's going to be fine. im sorry for having doubts, Mr. Bloop Bloop, i love you. xoxo.

2010-06-25T23:13:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAAHAH. CUTE THANG!
xoxo.

ps/ farah, edwin and yan can be brother, pls. they bloop bloop together! ;D

2010-06-24T15:27:00.001+08:00

"No, he doesn’t always make me happy. There are times when I really just want to punch him in the face, get up and walk away because it seems so much easier. But that’s not what true love is about. It’s about learning to forgive him for his mistakes, not holding grudges and bringing up the past. It’s about learning to love and admire him even more for all the small imperfections, because not one person on this earth is perfect. It’s about discovering something new about each other every day, and falling in love all over again every time you look into his eyes. It’s about understanding and working through problems, not just giving up when something goes wrong. True love wasn’t meant to be easy, but it’s definitely worth it." xoxo.

2010-06-24T01:18:00.002+08:00

mine & baby's current addiction. everytime i asked him to play his song, this song will be played first among all. i love you, dearheart!

2010-06-24T00:17:00.007+08:00

*yeah, pos card means alot to me, want 30% discount? ;p*

had an awesome day with FarahBaby! we had catch ups of each other, shared stories, exchange experience and all, that took us nearly 1 hour to finish a shared meal. hehehe. we learned like alot from each other. after which, we walked all the way from ps to orchard central, then 313. had our yammi yogurt, like finally after so long. before heading to work at 530, haad mini window shopping, yeay! ^^ it was a simple yet lovely day. and the rest, when's your turn? you know who you are. missing you girls, so much already! ;(

WE LOOK SOMEHOW ALIKE, RIGHT? hehehe.
"aku nanti ader tige anak tau, first mesti boy"
"aku twin, satu girl satu boy, boy 1st ah yan nak name dannish, then girl ellysha"
"then nanti kte go shopping same2 dgn anak2 kite"
HAHAHAAHAHAH. berangan mau lebeh! ;p

313 babes, HAHEHU. love them all, especially the Manager.
although i paitao-ed work like so many time, still sayang me. heheh!

the greeny girlfriends, thanks for that day! xoxo.

I WANT MORE GIRLS OUTING, PLS!

2010-06-20T11:45:00.004+08:00

*difference between bad and good picture quality* ;p
*hahaha. that cute flower from him, sekeping mcm badanyer! ;p

ive been very busy with stuffs which i dont know what. there's always plan everyday, that simply drag me to be broke. have i mention? KARATE KID WAS AWESOME. i dont mind watching it again and again. on that day itself, all cinemas was fully booked, from lido to cineleisure to plaza sing, end up we just decided to watch at the cathay although its like 5th row from the front?! HAHA. and just yesterday the man wanted to watch toy story, omg baby of all stories?!

Life's been great, really. Families, both mine and his. Thanks for everything. Relationship, although we both are still struggling to like fix the puzzle back, we at least managed to understand each other and keep assuring each other everything's will be alright. it takes time, though. nevertheless, he's forever a supporting partner who will never give up and keep things going. thats the reason, i love you. BUT THE ONLY THING IS NOW, FRIENDS!!! where on earth are you guys!? when can we meet, attachment is starting soon!! and im sure all of us will be very busy by then, we seriously need to meet and have some catch ups. rinddddddduuuuu, MANE NAK ANU?!?!? and yah, i cant wait for attachment. wooohhhoooooo! omg omg, comfirm best! ;D Life's back to usual. now i realized that, we can never forget Almighty even for a second, he can always take all the good things from us in just a blink of eyes. Therefore, we must always thank him and be humble. Thank you, Allah.

2010-06-12T08:45:00.002+08:00

http://www.formspring.me/RiaahLove

wondering why im awake as early as this? i had a bad dream, as in very kental dream, what else, ghost?! wth. i even realized that i cried when i woke up. & i dont know why i grabbed my phone and dialed any number, and i heard baby's voice. he calms me down, and when i wanted to continue my sleep, the dream was about to start again. -_- scary much, naseb tk terkencing mcm dulu!

working later on at 12, will end at 6, then carry on with a date with love. Again, when was the last time we go on a proper date?! org tu kan dulu busyy, MANE NAK ANUUU!? (farah, you get me hooked with this, even yan also almost get hooked, watch out you! ;p)

UBIN KIA's,
i miss you girls, extremely a lot! when can we meet, besides the ubin trip, that will be too long to wait, can we like meet next week or anytime soon? i know there's alot to catch up, cos we wont be meeting each other anymore during attachment next month. wahai misi misi sekalian, hubungi saye! ;B

2010-06-10T18:29:00.003+08:00

My Beloved BabyAngel,
Please be strong hunniebunny. Im utterly Sorry sayang, if ive been hurting/yelling/shouting to you for all these while.I know im so stupid/idiot and most importantly useless. Mummy, i promise that i wont ever leave you again.Ill never let you go wifey. Muhammad Suffiyan loves Fathini Khairiah from the start and the story of Rhiyaan will never end till eternity. I will always love you forever Lullababygirl(: Go have a good rest first okay sayang. I dont want you to think too much honeybee we will always stay strong, no matter what comes our way! I love you endlessly, Fathini Khairiah Bte Azis ;) MMUUAAAACKKKKKSS. SAYAAANG MAMA!

EMO SHITXZX AH, SUFFIYAN! ;P

2010-06-09T00:33:00.005+08:00

"ONE LOVEEEEEEEEEEE!"
When things go wrong, you always care for us, keep supporting us. keep us going, keep us strong, keep having faith in us. (been wanting to have granchild from me, BLUEHS ;P)
thats the reason i never give up. XoXo.

besides them, your friends, my friends, have been and always telling me to stay strong.
i tried, although half way, i lost faith, i gave up. but to think back of Rhi-yaan, to think back of how we started to think back, the thicks and thins, to think back about what we've been through, im strong, will always be. everyone did mistakes, you, me, all. By that, we're able to learn from it, and help us to be better. I hope you really mean every single word you said, especially about the ring&bracelet thing. *i think youre ggoing to fail if you were to tell a bed time story* -_-

"No matter what goes wrong,
Rhi-yaan Will always stay strong"

Muhammad Suffiyan Saffii,
ive forgiven and forgotten whatever that happened. because i consider this as a new chapter, remember when you took off and put it on back the bracelet, it means a new love. lets pick up and buck up ourselves, once again. ill try, you'll try, Rhi-yaan will try to make the best to let this love last. No matter how hard, how hurt, how pain, just hold each other near and close, everything will be fine. i love you, babykuuuuuuuu. ;D
ps/ dont worry, i wont revenge, but you'll be punished. siaaaaaaap kau! ;P *strangling you*

XoXo.

2010-06-08T10:02:00.005+08:00

its been awhile since i last sleep soundly without being awaken by the sudden pain,
its been awhile since i last wake up and look forward for another day,
its been awhile since i last dream about being the happiest person ever,
its been awhile since i last heard the snoring/sleepy voice on the phone,
its been while since i last cry of happiness like i never did before,
its been awhile since i last feel the love like i never felt before,
its been awhile since i last feel satisfied and overwhelmed,
because you made it possible, with you around everything seems possible, as always.

i feel alive, i smell my sense of direction back, im no longer lost, im no longer faking.
because with you near me, im always being myself.
because with you around, i feel secured.
because with you around, my faith always stay. its always been you, yes you.
always, still, now, and forever, i love you, till the last air particle in my body.
XoXo

GREEN MAKES ME ALIVE, always and forever!

2010-06-08T00:49:00.002+08:00

as always, XoXo.
today was great!
& ive moved laaa, so dont kepo anymoreee!
from HDB to CONDO. hehehehehe.

2010-06-07T10:37:00.002+08:00

Dear both; brother & sister efa,
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. you never give up on me. i just love you both, alotttt! next holiday trip, must bring me along la, okayyy? sayaaaaaaaaaaangggg XoXo.

2010-06-07T10:19:00.003+08:00

"korang satu hari kalau pegi skekola baju tak koto, tak sah!"
"baik uniform, PE, baju ruma sekali!"
HEHEEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEEHEHEHEHEH.
farah, we jiweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee whaaaaat. XoXo.
*injection day. slack at ika's place. capoeira.*

2010-06-06T22:33:00.002+08:00

2 year old Ella singing 'Baby'-Justin Bieber @ Yahoo! Video

SHE MAKE MY DAY, SERIOUSLY!
hey cutie, i love justin bieber toooooo!

2010-06-05T10:10:00.003+08:00

omg omg, I LOVE UBIN KIA, LIKE HELL LOADS LA, PLS.
i cried reading those messages. Babies, with you near me, im always strong. i dont need guys, i dont need them, but i need you guys. from the very beginning of my first day in school, we've been always sticking with one another, ALL GIRLS. with our selekeh-ness, selengehness, heck care attitude, we dont care about anything else but ourselves. we always create the joy, happiness, and never fail to drag and lift those who being left behind. always being scolded for being late after breaks, for being the most noisiest in class, always laugh even over slightest thing, but however we became the bookmark of our class. to be continued ah, i want to shower and go outtt, HAHAHA. loveeeeee, XOXO

2010-06-02T16:31:00.002+08:00

XoXo.

2010-05-31T23:13:00.002+08:00

i want to be as fast as them! fuhhhhhh, power brooo! ^^
will brush up, and lets fight for the v.p position, HEHEHEH. joke*

2010-05-31T22:58:00.002+08:00

Dear Farah Nuratikah,
i love you, babe. thanks for the hamster. dont worry, ill take care of him. what shall i name him, then? chump?! HEHEHEH ♥

Dear Mardiana,
although im not sure whats going on right now, but i know youre strong enough. youre indeed stronger than me. how you always by my side when i broke down, will be twice as much ill be there for you. you can count on me.

Dear Assuartika,
We have the girl power! we are strong, let it be now, not later on. at least we still have time to buck up. my shoulder is always yours.

Dear Sakinah,
i dont blame you, neither him. i understand you. dont stress uo yourself, just do whatever that makes you feel happy. why bother about others when they didnt bother about you, right? so yeah baby, chillxzx okaaayyy!

Dear Ida,
you're the hottest among all. yet, youve never been telling or complaining about guys. youre damn super cool. from now onwards i shall just be like you, we deserve it, right? heheh. im soo gonna miss you if you really gg to leave us! ;(

Dear Ubin Kia,
i love each of you like freaking alottttttttt! you always be the reason i always look forward for school. i cant wait for attachment, hopefully all of us will be posted to the same hospital. XoXo.

2010-05-31T02:01:00.002+08:00

i knew it. i believe it. even right until now, even it may seem impossible.
let time decide, not ego decide.

2010-05-27T01:28:00.002+08:00

"sometimes love comes around, & it knocks you down,

just get back up when it knocks you down, knock you down."

time to back up myself and stand up again. its pointless. heheh. my ex told me the tips of how to get over it, as whats happening now is exactly what happened to us. so yeah, karma much? so you better believe in karma, people! ;D lets be happy again people, life only once! so yeah yeah!

love you people! XoXo

2010-05-24T23:16:00.005+08:00

tu la, sape suro kepo, kan saket ati sendiri.
tkya nak stalk stalk, da dapat bekas orang tuh diam diam aje!
pegi sane happy happy, tunggu kau punye turn!

IMMA STRONG GIRL! there will be no more tears, no no! i wont regret, i should be impressed of myself. i have a lot of people who love me a lot, who sacrificed more than you did, who never give up telling me to stop crying. who ALWAYS there to lift me up. a day of crying makes me stronger and open wide to see the world. hehehexzx. imma happy kid nowwwwww.

nak pegi date pun pakai baju yg aku kasi, sengket perrr. oh ah, baju baju yg kau kasi, nanti aku kasi pat dier okaaay?! dengan rele hati beb! ;B

life vision is now, school. family. friends. bridge leaders. GPA 3.5. HOT GUYS, who's not skinny ;D

suck your own ball, boy. oh, forgotten. there's her! ;D
da ludah, tkkan perna dijilat balek.

2010-05-24T06:26:00.004+08:00

i belive in love, i believe in us.
"No matter what goes wrong, we'll always saty strong"

Dearest suffiyan,
chin up, wipe all your tears. you're strong, we are strong. you know i love you too. you know i love you as deep as you do. the more guys i met, the more i know nothing beats you. you're the best. no matter how deep i hated you, it will never go beyond my love, cos my love for you is deeper. ive been wondering too, why when im with you, either yours or mine instinct will always be true, everything that we expected sure will happen without telling. no matter how hard we fought, how deep we can hate each other, the love will still outshine. i just want the best for you, thats it. think twice. ive made your life miserable. i dont want to make it worst. seeing you hurt, kills me. although i hurt, seeing you happy makes me happy too.

you know right, jodoh wont go anywhere. im always here, just turn to me if you need me. i promise i wont go far. i dont want to ruin/distract you. so just push me as far as you feel like pushing, so that there wont be any obstacles. no, macdonald, no timing of 1130, no tmart, no stupid songs, no whatever. they are all just co-incidence. dont think too much. we need each other, we love each other. true, its only you who always running on my thoughts, who i always love no matter what. who i always hoping on. i love you too, muhammad suffiyan. i love you as much as you do. im sorry. i know, sorry isnt enough. but you should know, how i always mean it. sorry for torturing you, i cant take this any longer either. saaaaynaaaang suffiyaan! a week feels like a year. i need youuu as much as you dddo. as much as babygirl needs babyboyyy.

you believe, i believe. we believe. i love you always, baby! ;D

2010-05-24T06:14:00.004+08:00

the call that i will never forget.

r: tell me now, straight to my face, i want to hear from you saying, you dont love me anymore, you dont want me anymore, you will never come back to me anymore.
s: *starts crying* i tk bole, berat tau tk hati. i sayang you.
r: *crying louder* dont cry, you know thats my weakest point. now just simply say it, and i swear, i wont bother you anymore. youve moved on, i can to, i have to. but i want things between us to clear first. so, come on tell me.
s: tknk, i nak you. i sayang you. sala kan i la, sala kan i! sume i.
r: sala i, i tknk bobal psl kte lagi. i nk you ckp straight, thats all. i letak, both lead our way now.
s: you tau, kat skola slalu i nanges, kat meje i sume name you, everywhere i go reminds me of you. i sayang you tau tak. tadi ibu 4 kali tanye2 psl you dlm kete, i nanges je seh you. you nak tau ape, td asar baru i doa, by tonight you tk call i, i assume you btol2 da move on! skali you kol, i tktao nk ckp ape. tp instinct i kuat, i tau rhiyaan tk perna seperate. you, ape makne ni sume?! mcm mane you tau i tunggu you kol.
r: (tell me now, how am i supposed to control my ego any longer) i sayang you jugak, you should know me, you have low anger management, i have high ego. then? you yg move on, you yg suke assume without asking, then sala i? serious i tk mara, im happy to see you happy again. just as simple as that, say it, i want to hear from you.
s: tknk you, tk bole. i sayang you.
r: da ah, i penat, i nak tdo. ill just assume you say it. bsok i skola la.
s: tknk, i nak you jer. i nak bobal nan you. i rindu you.
r: although i love you so much, i know how girls would feel. dont break her heart pls, continue. i wont hate her, nor you. we're still friends. im always here. da tkmo nanges. i nak tdooo!
s: tk.. tknk.. plss.. i sygg youu.. baby, i maseh ader instinct kte mesti get back together. you tkmo move on dgn laki tuh..
r: (cute right, kau bole, aku tkleh ker? jeles? maseh syg tuh!) jodoh tkkn kemane. wipe your tears lets go to sleep. im sleepy.
s: kalo you da 24 you jmpe i, you tego i tk?
r: (of all, 24?!) tknk ah, buat bodoh ah, sekali ludah tkmo jilat balek. nolaaa, i know what you need right now, i think we both need it. we need time off, you just do whatever you want, you kes syg i, tp you nak dengan org laen, then? go ahead. we're still young. my intention is not stoping, but to let things clear. so i can move on like you did.
s: tknk i sayaaang you, hati i nak you jer. deep inside we both need each other.
r; da, tkmo nanges. kte tdo, pretend nothing happen. okay? just lead your life now. night, tdo okay.
s: i nk tdo kat tepon same same mcm dulu, i nak you. i rindu you. i love you baby. i sayaaang you. tkmo tglkn i okay?
............................. i cant remember, cos i fall asleep already.....................
so, whats now?!

2010-05-23T08:42:00.001+08:00

i miss you, soooo.

2010-04-25T21:26:00.005+08:00

"No matter what goes wrong, We'll always stay strong." - Rhi-yaan.

the boy never fail to make me miserable, whenever he starts to be at his highest jealousy level. however, he always remind me that, jealous is equals to love. as much as i feel jealous about the littlest thing, is how much i dont want to lose you. he never fail to make me feel loved. i love you till the end of my life! i cayang eu! HAHA.
"baby cheecks. darlington. minion. sugarbaby. hunneybunny. babywifey. angeleyes. baby princess. sweetest wifey." he always come out with all sort of names to call me, but he said, 'll be the only one he's referring to. tell me now, how am i supposed to stop loving you.

i love my girls too. they are my life in school. *hugs*

2010-04-18T09:51:00.002+08:00

even if im at my lowest point, but having you with me makes me stronger and better.
i love you, sufffiyan! XoXo

2010-04-16T19:53:00.005+08:00

i wanna be strong, exactly like my mom.

only the 5th day of school, im down with fever. i cant afford to miss any lesson, but i did. i had to go home as im very weak. i cant even stay focus on what is taught. i dont know whats wrong.

i think i shall just focus on my life now. i have to, no matter what. why should i bother, when you didnt. maybe you'll turn back as you regretted of your own move, leaving the better one. how i wish to have a very huge mirror in front of us, so that we'll stop pointing other mistake but to ourselves.

school has been fine, lessons are all absorbing at a fast rate. alhamdulillah. but i hate nags. i mean, although it wast for me, but it affects me. i hope my JN1004A, we'll be better, right? A is the Awesome ones, so lets show it to them. i can see that Mdm Tham, loves us alot, so we shoudnt disappoint her.

and for most, i know i shouldnt disappoint my family, especially myself. that means, i really have to work hard! with all my strength, i hope, i wish, i will, do my very best. lovesssssssssss!

2010-04-12T01:13:00.004+08:00

im so not prepared for school. i feel like postponing my 1st day of school to some other weeks, instead of TOMORROW! -__- im like mixed with all sorts of feelings, nervous, excited, happy, scary, and any other related. i hate new environment cos i have to slowly adapt to everything new. i have to learn this and that. whatever, i have to put aside all those negatives!

nevertheless, i received messages that really help me in getting myself prepared for tomorrow and make me feel better, yes much much better. i love you guys.

"syg have fun in school tmr. :) love you. hahahh." -by Fudge baby.

"Hi Riah. Just wanted to wish you all the best for first day of school tmr. start a day with postive mindset and things will be okay.gd luck and study rajin rajin okay girl. Later got term break, we'll all go vsit momo again. hehe. be happy and stay cheerful always (: -by Amber/yana.
(momo is a fish from botanical garden's pond. we randomly name her momo. she's cute, btw!)

"syggg, i was so looing forward to do closing w you on sat, but you cudnt make it. nvm thattt. before its too late, just wanna wish you all the best for the first day of school tmr! omg. excited tak?! study hard okay. make all of us proud! new environment, new friends! ;D and you're a big girl now, dont mix w bad company.. else the whole 313 family will march down to yr schl. haha. ;P im sure you;ll do fine. take care of yourself too. ill see you soon sisterrrrrr. love youuuu! andd, da rinduuuu. how? xoxo. - by sisterr efaa, future sister in laww.

last, but for mossssssssstttttttt (!!!!)
"Time goes by, year after year, im happy to be loved by you because every moment spent with you, the world seems perfect. i love you so much, i just had to let you know that, my babyface. i;ll never stop loving you, Fathini Khairiah bte Azis. Tomorrow will be your very first day of studying your future career, from now onwards you gotta do well in your assessment. Make sure you focus on your studies and achieve your goals. i always know that you can be the best among all. Im always here for you sweetheart, i will always be. "bismillah hirahmanirahim, Ya Allah Ya tuhanku, capai kan cite-cite fathini khairiah ku yang tercinte ini untuk menjadi nurse. amin, amin!" and, please baby, please. dont get influence/attracted by any guys down there. im so worried till i cant close my eyes thinking about it.im just too afraid of losing you. i know, there's surely might be some disturbance, but your name is engraved in my soul and i wont give up on you. Ive been hiding this words inside my heart till today i need to let you know. my love for you is way much bigger than the skies. I love you till eternity sayang ;) i hope you have a fullest rest tonight. sleep tightly darlingggg. sugaarr dreaams! see you in rhiyaan's land my princess queen! muaaaaccckkkkssssss! *hugs* -by my only baby, Muhammad Suffiyan.

and of course, my dearest family members, who endlessly giving me supports, advices, courage, love, care, concern, hugs and kisses. ill do my best, i will. insya Allah. i dont want to disappoint anyone again, especially myself.

2010-04-11T09:17:00.003+08:00

We must learn how to understand others, by trying to put yourself in their shoes, you might know how it feels. There is when you'll put you egos aside.

tampiness mall->pasiris->nuwyrah's party->e-hub->pool->arcade->home.

another drama mama day! however, had to spend my time with cousin and the bf. its been quite long since we last hang out together, you, me, fiee & yan. when was the last? swimming at Jurong?! haha. i love you to bits, cousin! all the best in business studies in Bishan! (:

basically school starts on monday which is tomorrow. what do you expect, of course im nervous. nevertheless, ive already knew few of them during orientation last friday. im not in the same class as Balqis, but with fykah. Hope everything will be going on smoothly!

im in love with recent things i have right now! madly in love with my sparkling ring, with my jumpsuit (i even thought of buying one more with the exact design but diff color), my mondo wedges, new wallet, and of course, my D&G perfume! heheh. i loveeeeee it! (:

2010-04-08T00:08:00.005+08:00

with the sparkles, i will sleep soundly tonight.

even if its the most simplest celebration we had so far, imma happy goober! (: thanks cotton on, for fixing the date, 7th of the month to be the pay day, perfect day for me to withdraw money$.
met cousin, faizah. miss her tones. *hugs* had a quick lunch together and off to meet baby. exchange gift, session! hehehe. ;D just few days past, i had a ring on my right, and now, i have one more to put on, on my left; fully occupied already. i love you to bits sayang! had our 1st round shopping, trained to bugis. then afterwards to town! hehehe. i lovee lovee today! i love suffiyan, more though. nights; sugar dreams!

2010-04-02T01:27:00.001+08:00

Dear Suffiyan,
I love you. thats the only words i can say at this point of time. i miss you, already! please come back fast okay. i hope you're doing very fine there. (:
as for leaving me for three days, he bought me a gift. i super like the gift, of course, love indeed. thanks for the couple ring, baby. i know, we've been wanting to get that since our 1st anni, but yet always been delayed. so finally, you're the one who got it for us. how you know i like the one with diamond? well, you know me the best! *hugs*

i've been wearing the very first bracelet from perlini silver that he gave me during so called "his proposal" when asking me to be his, for almost 2 years, so of course it needs something new what. so yeah, i got it! beside the same necklace, same ring. what else? soon will think about it la. hehe.

No matter what goes wrong,
Our love will always stay strong.
i love you.

2010-03-25T12:15:00.003+08:00

i want to put on braces.
i want to cut my hair short.
i want to go to universal studios.
i want to buy school bag.

target to aim by next month. yeah yeaaah! ^^
;D

2010-03-24T11:19:00.006+08:00

I love m store; my people. they're the besttttt.

especially this little sweet girl; fazlina. i love her alotttt! although we just know each other just recently, yet we're too close to be apart. she's the best workmate, as well as a listening ear. i know i can count on you. you've always been there whenever i need a shoulder to cry on. i hope our friendship last. all the best in lifeee. no men no cry! you roxxx ^^

and of course, the others. even if they're not in the picture, ;D

and of course, myself.

Last but for most, of course i love him too!

2010-03-18T00:30:00.003+08:00

worth the wait. worth the tears. worth the patient. worth the sacrifice. worth the experience. worth the lesson taught. worth the pain. worth the (just fill whatever you feel like filling) but waittttt, NOT WORTH AT ALL FOR HAVING THE EYE BAGS (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
told ya, you cant live without me, either. elleeeeeeh, nak step konon. sudalaah kau! kasi tempoh seminggu, tige hari da carek baleeeek. ;P boooooooooooo to yan. so today was tiring yet lovely day. meet>swimming>yishun>town>shop>cab home. love you! *hugs*

2010-03-17T10:48:00.006+08:00

As we grow up, we learn that even the person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying fast. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort your love ones, fall asleep watching the sun rise up, stay up late, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back. When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place, it makes you realized how far we have gone through together.

Don't Quit

Even When things go wrong as they sometimes will, When the road you're trudging seems all up hill, When the funds are low and the debts are high, when you want to smile, but you have to sigh, When care is pressing you down a bit, cause you just need Rest, not quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns, as every one of us sometimes learns. Don't give up though the pace seems slow cause You may succeed with another blow. You never can tell how close you are, cause it may be near when it seems so far. So stick to the fight even when you're at hardest hit, cause another will realized how hard you have tried to make yourself close to it. even if things are at worst, you must say to yourself, i must not quit.

2010-03-16T10:18:00.002+08:00

i dont and never blame you, plsss let me explain. i hope, you understand how i feel when i first know about it, of course its unbelievable and i just cant accept the fact. we both are girls and i assume you know how it feels right. on the other hand, i dont entirely blame you. come on sweetheart, i feel bad, i feel guilty. i dont wish to be enemy and so on. im sorry if i hurt you i anywaayyy. i should thank you instead, for being there, when i wasnt, when he needed someone. you cheered him up. i would like to thank you a billion. please, im begging dont get things wrong, you're not at fault and no one blame you. im sorry?

2010-03-10T00:00:00.004+08:00

this boy is still the best till the end. it may seems impossible, it may be full of doubts, yet we'll do our best to make it through. through thick and thins, through the roughest road we've been through, we know that we need each other no matter how hard we tried to turn away. a year and 8 months is nothing compared to everything we've gone through together, and we know there are more to come. although, i dont know why nowadays most sweet couples i adored have already broke up, i hope it wont happen to us, never. Insya Allah. may this last forever. i believe, you believe; we believe. you're my heart throb!

as shown above, we went too zoo and shopping afterwards. was great, with him by side all day long. we'll make a difference to ourselves this year, we'll be better; thats a promise of us. Amin. oh yes, thanks ibu and abg for all those advices. i'll improve myself soon, i know im way too far from being my own self. i know, ill get back once i had enough of all these. i hope i wont be too late. i know its forbidden and sinful, yet its beyond resistance, i admit i have low inner protection that makes me so easy to be influenced and so on. Almighty Knows the best. i have my resolution.

2010-03-03T23:29:00.002+08:00

i cant believe this! please tell me, that wasnt you, the one i saw in the picture.
i watched Dear John again, this time round with Fudgey baby. Since she wanted to watch it eagerly but was waiting for pay, so why not i bring her first. furthermore, the show will not be in cinema any longer except at the cathay. yes, both of us cried in the cinema, until our blusher, eyeliner, mascara, easy said, our make ups are all ruined by out tears. hah! had a great time with her, afterall. had yogurt, famous amos, snacks, bubble tea. we bought earing(sss) and sent her off to work. which afterwards, i shopped alone and meet the boyfriend to have supper. i know its simple, yet i enjoyed. i want more catch ups with girlfriends!

btw, i didnt wait for DAE result, i just proceed with the course in ITE. went there early in the morning. i cant believe ill be schooling there. i somehow like afraid, of the people, the surrounding. luckily fykah will be in the same course as me, at least i have someone to rely on. settled everything there, and off for lunch with ibu. somehow i regretted for not waiting, as most of my friend says that, if it is unsuccessful, we should have already received a letter, but no, i didnt(!!). who knows theres hope? nah, its okay. just wait what comes next..

2010-03-01T08:07:00.002+08:00

Hi, i have nothing to update actually. im waiting for the clock to strike 9, and im off. work starts at 10. i will always have the same problem repeating each time before i head to work, which is choosing what to wear. tskkkk. before, while still working at zara, i always complain how pathetic it is wearing the same boring black uniform. life, you will never be satisfied with what you have been given. however, i still loveeeeeeeeee my outlet!

i waaanttt more outings with baby. weve been lacking of catch ups. btw, ive watched valentines dat, Dear john and My name is Khan. great movies! not regretting of watching them, especially the last one. i sacrificed my 3 hours of sleep just to watch it online, when the next day im working morning shift. buttt its okay, my outlet rocks, even the MIT late for half an hour, what can you expect from the part- timers. hahh! ;D alright then, I WANAAAAA GET READY NOWWW. offfff, bye!

2010-02-26T12:08:00.002+08:00

STOP STALKING ME, ms/mr stalker!

today going to have a big lunch with baby. but i still cant decide, SEOUL GARDEN or SAKURA BUFFET. tssssk. baby will be ending school soon, yet im still here; kopet. plus, i still have things to do before i leave house, like help ibu kopek udang, potong tahu, potong paru= pasal lepas keje ibu nak masak sambal goreng -____________- tsssssk. howwwwwww?

2010-02-24T16:06:00.004+08:00

im just sux in editing blog skin. im no longer have the expertise in editing at all. everytime i feel like changing, i will ruin it instead. so end up, i will still copy and paste the same old skin. hahh!

yeah, they rox! we celebrated julie's birthday last week. launched at breeks then headed to botanic garden. everything went smoothly. it was great, i had fun and nice meeting new friends. next, JBS dude!

yesterday collect my SATA result, then headed to nuwyraah's crib. talked, bitched, helped things out, the most important, MAKAAAN! oh ya, im gaining weight instead of losing. 53.1 is considered fat, and my BMI is the worst. dalaa pendekk, gemuuuuuk! ape nak jadi.

okaaaaaaaaay, see you lateeeeer. im off to work. *kisses*

2010-02-20T01:18:00.002+08:00

i love the boyfriend without the need to explain how much i really do cos he is also feeling the some amount of it. i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee you!

today was just great. will elaborate more when i received pictures from julie's/faz's/amber's friends. see, now im confused already who im related to actually. hah! its okaaay, im fineee.

ohhhhhh, i loveee and enjoy workinggg. my store rox except two. lol! ;D

2010-02-09T09:56:00.007+08:00

on the 5th is a greaaaattt day for me (!!!!) ;B

as planned, headed to habourfront to meet the rest. can you imagine, out of 7, only 3 showed up. we're being pitao-ed. haha. put aside of that, so me, hans and tan went to giant first, to grab snacks and drinks. dropped by zara for awhile while proceeding to the monorail. we bought children fare, and we badi already when there's a person in-chared standing there. yada yada, found a very nice place to chill. played games, had a lot of laughter, shared stories, and blablabla. i bought a ball, yet we only had about a few minutes only playing with it, cause it was blown by the wind. hans wanted to reach for it, but no, i dont want him to take the risk. we then decided to take the sky ride and luge. helluva fun, i tell you! although, only the three of us, we had fun! ;D since melissa was waitng for us, we met her at vivo. went zara, hugged everyone, purchase our reserved items, and had lunch at banquet. afterwards we went separate ways, with Melissa tagging along to meet boyfriend at Somerset ♥

please, can someone take away my posb card from me, and dont ever let me know where you hide it. cause i seriously have to stop spending! i spent over $300in only a day. i can go bankrupt i tell you, if to worst, i own a visa card. but i just cant help myself, sales everywhere, furthermore, its been awhile since i last shop and get the things i badly want, so basically that explains why. however, im very satisfied with what i bought, the things ive been eyeing for is finally mine. ;D

besides Zara and Pull & bear, i just found out that Bershka is a nice brand indeed, get myself tops from those three. then just found out that new look has a very wide range of footware with very affordable prices. so get myself a sandal and a boot. oh ya, a sneakers for my baby ♥ then next to forever 21, to buy the top ive been wanting since forever and a cap. get melissa a top as well for accompanying me through out the day. then to cotton on, my 2nd home, to purchase my uniform, im seriously run out off clothes to wear for work. tssssk. so as well as, to rubi and cotton on body. since i broke baby's shade, bought him a new one from aldo. ENOUGGGGGH, please. yes, thats enough for the day. but i continued another shopping spree with brother, his hg and his friend at far east, got myself a jumper, a sneakers and Victoria secret perfume. this time, is really enough for me. i nearly faint when i was counting how much i spent for my stuffs. but, im happy (!!!)

as for our 19th, didnt celebrate as always, had a dinner only at pastamania, as baby was sick, and i was working that day. so yeah, it thoughts that count, right? loveeeee you! ♥

okaay now, without realizing, im lateee for work alreaddy. bye! ;B

2010-02-04T12:24:00.007+08:00

Like finally, im updating my dusty blog. Pardon for the lack updates, my everyday Routine is very tight, that explains why. For most i would like to inform that im not working at Zara Vivo city anymore, so yah dont be ohh-sooo sweet to surprise me by popping up, cos yah, you would not find me there. and hereby, i proudly say that im officially cotton on girl. ya know, im very jakon the moment i got the red striking lanyard with my pos card on it. omg, so coool! and my first day there was like already my 1 year there, already. im very, extremely, comfortable with the surrounding and the people around me, what else do i ask more, brother's girlfriend= kak efaa, is there, working at the same outlet as me. cool right! ;)
plus the manager, alex, is soo funny! he's very approachable. you imagine;
he; *accidentally dropped hangers in the fitting room, which that time i was in charged there*
'eh sorry sorry'
me; eh what sorry. you purposely right.
he; *shocked with my respond, and look at me, stunned*
me; *then i smiled* chill ah, joking only.
*pick up the hangers, put on the burro*
he; *keep dumping it the box*
me; 'eh, hang here, dont dump there la, later troublesome.'
he; 'okay la, i think you take over my position, you be the manager la.'
*take out his lanyard and pass it to me, and i did the same*
after a min,
me; eh dont wnat la, sorry la, i joke only. later you fire me.
*pass it back his lanyard*
he; 'no laa, better to joke around. i think if all of the staffs like you, i will always look forward for work. i will never experience how stress is like' *smile*
me; *remind myself, HEY ITS ONLY YOUR FIRST DAY, YOU ACT BIG ONLY! hah*

on the other side, i miss Zara people. i miss the friendly environment there.i miss everything, there. but i dont like working there, haha! wth. yeaaay, tomorrow going to drop by there, with the others! weeeee- ;D

btw, i know i havent mention about my result, i didnt because i didnt make it for my maths, that pulls everything down down down to the drain. i got into RP, but i decided not to proceed. why should i get into the course that i dont like, right? furthermore, i seriously have NO interest in New Media thing, at all! so yeah, i still waiting for the appealing result, and at the same time just proceed for ITE course, and will be retaking maths as well. tskkkk.

and of course, working at Cotton On at the same time, to help my parents pay for my fees and all. i want to be independent. cheeeeeey! wellll, tomorrow pay-day(!!!!) i bet you i'll left that 1.2 with only few dollars in a only week. jokkkke*

2010-01-17T10:10:00.002+08:00

♥ " i wanna know what love is, i want you to show me,
i wannna feel what love is, i know you can show me." ♥

2010-01-09T00:07:00.006+08:00

I LOVE YOU, yes i really do!

YOU = Muhammad Suffiyan.

Quick Updates For Yesterday,

Went for Cotton On interview.
Saw jamilah nearby there, and quickly rush to the exact place.
was so shocked to see the number of people there.
done with it and slacked at Macdonalds and had some catch ups. nice!
bussed all the way, to chai chee secondary school.
Fetch baby from school without informing him at all.
saw his oh-so-smart-boy-look fresh from school. hahh!
cabbed to his house and waited him to change.
headed to sakura for lunch since both are hungry.
then to esplanade, and tour around there. (museum of arts, and whatsoever)
had dessert at secret receipe.
was so down when i still didnt receive any get back call from cotton on.
when suddenly,

caller; hello. may i speak to fathini.
me; yes speaking. and you are.
caller; im (im not so sure what his real name, actually) calling from cotton on.
me; *screams* are you going to say that im selected.
caller; yes you are. congratz!
me; omg. i will assure that from now onwards ill support man-u.
(only those were there will know what is all about) he's so funny!.
and conversation goes on.

i was so happy that i decided to shop till i drop.
after done at marina square, headed to bugis.
after spending like amost 200, decided to train home.
got myself three tops, a shoe, and baby 2 tops, a jeans, slipper and a perfume. ;D
i loveeee working! so that i will earn money money money $$$<3

so yeah, basically thats how i spent my day, yesterday. had fun although its just a simple outing. had a lot of laughter and happiness as usual. HAPPY 18TH, BABY! <3

BYE ZARA, HELLO COTTON ON! <3

2010-01-05T08:55:00.008+08:00

"True Love Is Like a Ghosts, Everybody talks about but only a few have experienced it."

Muhammad Suffiyan,
Thank you for everything. i owe you so much. you gave me all kinds of love, concern. you pampered me a lot like your own baby. you were always there eveytime i needed you the most. never heve you hurt me as bad as i did. your patience towards me has no limits at all, that makes me love you more and more each second passes by. you are the one im searching for throughout this love journey. now i have met you and i dont want to be apart from you even for a day. i hope, i wish, i pray, we will make it through, Amin. I love you, beyond Infinity baby.

" Love is not the matter of counting the years, but making the years count"

Life has been pretty much great. although i have to work 5 days in a week, with rotating shift, unsure off days, i still enjoy the way my life flows. mentioning about work, ive gotten my pay this morning. as early as 7, ive already withdrawn 250 to pay my sister school books. see, im soo kind-hearted, right. since Zara sale has started on last Wednesday, which is our rebajas sale, we have to dress up according to the theme of the day. i bet, everyone of us enjoyed it. the first day, we have to dress up as lollita. everyone were given ribbons to put it anywhere they preferred to. as usual, before work starts, we will be having activities. so on that day was a 'fashion show' day, each group have to choose an outfit for the other group to wear, while they did the same too. it was hilarious, i tell you. imagine, a guy wearing tube dress with heals? hah! while for the second day, was jepsey style. we have to put the band on our forehead, which is nowadays trend. and we have to give those exhausted expression. tsk, i forgot what we did on that day. while on the third day was, sporty look. with the wrist band, and those pasted 'fake number' behind on our back like those runner. nonsence i tell you! on the forth day, was painted faces look, with all those paited drawings on our face. but i didnt, cool shit! i was on the early shift and will be going out afterwards, so it will be so troublesome later on to remove it, right. furthermore, i was late on that day, so i managed to escape! ;D the activity was cheer. we have to do our own cheer leaders and such. again, so funny! imagine, a guy being the leader for the team, cheering? hahh! while the last of the first five days, was the peek, the best! we have be like those 80's looks. retro retro kind, with those centre parting, flat hair for the guys, and those big colourful hair bands with colourful accessories and make ups for the ladies. and guess what, for the activities we were devided to three groups and have to create our on dance move for any 80's song. imagine la, please imagine. tsssssssssssk. hahahs! it was a blast, i had fun! ;D

after a week with only one day off, this week im given 3 days off. yesaa, im sure going to sayang sayang myself to shop till i drop, what do you expect, i have money in hand. lol. i want to get myself nintendo DSi, in pink. i want to get myself an iTouch, and of course i want to get those Zara clothes that ive already reserved so much earlier. ahh, can go crazy, so much more in my list. yessa! ;D and dont worry baby, ive already put aside some for you *winks*

And yeah, i miss those people above. yes, A WHOLE LOT! meet up, soon please. but no, i didnt miss haddy and jamilah! haha, because i just saw them like two days ago. thanks for dropping by. was so panicked that ive forgotten to hug jam. okay guys; pretty please, lets have outing soon! plan man, plan! kay, thats all. will update again, once i have the momentum to do so. haha! seeeeee yaaaaaaaa!

oh btw,

HAPPY NEW YEAR, 2010! ;D
oh ya, had only a mini celebration after work with baby and friends; just to welcome 2010.

2009-12-27T23:01:00.001+08:00

SEZAIRI! <3
omg, i scream like hell!
and of course, it worth my more than 20 votes for him.
now, just waiting for the bills then. haha! ;D

ps; i even forced the boyfriend to vote for him, hehe.
lol. WEEEEE! MALAY ROXXXXXXXXX!

2009-12-27T02:00:00.002+08:00

i miss blogging. and of course, i missed many things to blog, as well. till i even forgotten what i wanted to blog. well, pardon for the very late update. as you know, ive started working and i should say it proudly, i prefer schooling. tsk. work is tiring, however i enjoy working. i dont know why, but i really do. maybe because of my colleagues, the hours and mostly, the pay of course. ;D the only exception is, i have lack of time for myself, and of course with the boyfriend too.

which means, every of my off days will be spend with him. we will just proceed for random outings. and yeah, that day we went to sembawang park, its a nice place, yes, that was my first time there so i was a lil bit excited about the place except for the toilet, please. tsk.

thanks a lot, to those loved ones who dropped by just to pay me a visit during working, aqilah, idris, Noor, bloody brother and gf, and of course the boyfriend and so on. it brighten up my day from a dull horrible day with idiots customers, to a cheerful day knowing that someone still remember me. oh ya, i miss my friends, all of you, regardless of which ever school, A LOT! ;( meet up soon.

i dont know what else, oh and, its cool to know friends from other outlets, because when during checking stocks with other outlets, we can do prank calls, like what i did to faizah and yana. hahs! btw, i hate 24 and i loveeeeeeeeeeeee fitting roooom! <3

2009-12-01T17:42:00.006+08:00

" Visit Me at Zara"

just realised that im going to get myself into working life, right after im done with the agreement. 8 hours of working in a day, punctuality, bear with complaints, interact with costumers, etc etc. no more late night calls with baby, no more outings, less time together. no more helping ibu with house chores, no more play masak masak/ fashion fashion/ teacher teacher with shifa' when we're bored at home, no more going to nenek house. i will now have to be responsible and be committed with work! -_-

however, i still have 5 more days left. so i will make sure that i will make use of it to the fullest, but exceptional for today because i was too exhausted and my legs hurt alot. Due to yesterday's 'randomania attacks me' i wore high heels without any occassional, (usually i will only wear heels when hari raya or stg) to RHS building. signed agreement and the i still couldnt believe that i really got the job, because seriously that day was, ''alaaa, just drop by try luck'' mood. headed to vivo by the 65 ride which took us nearly an hour, when we supposed eat breakfast but being pushed ahead to lunch, had chicken rice. oh, btw i think LJS breakfast worth the $3, the other day i went with ibu, NICE! ;D you should try the texas, man! back, dropped by Zara just to check out how things going on there, so scary lehhh! the people were all so fierce or stg, same goes to the outlet at Marina Sq's. tsk. nvm la, i will the first one to be so friendly and break the record. hehe;D met cousin and bf afterwards to play bowling, i didnt lead butt i didnt lose, either. may i know who's the loser? hahs. ehehs. had second lunch with them, this time round i had shaker fries and double chochlate frappe. then next headed to suntec to linger around. i find rubbi's shoes are all cool! baby bought me anderson's ice cream without me asking him to, only by hinting, hehe. thanks baby, lovelove*hugs* btw, the whole day we spent using his money, again thanks love! next, decided to have a sit and chiiilllll, at marina square's staircase. WE SPENT ALMOST 2 SOLID HOURS, there! paid off our long walking marathon, though. ;D after that, we called it a day and went home together by NEL. next outing together, new moon! <3>

2009-11-28T17:03:00.006+08:00

first time in my life i heard their shouts. i feel like crying, but they are placed at a better place there. on a lighter note, theres one sheep gave birth to two lambs. cooool right. and of course they were put aside.

i hate suffiyan ah, seriously!
'' baby, bau kat sini sedap sedap seh. macam bau minyak wangi yang selalu you pakai tu. same seh tak bedek, you! abeh tadi i tengah jalan, one of them macam kembar you, puteh puteh dier, cute cute dier, abeh i dengar macam suare you tengah panggil i, i ingat you tadi.''

bastero oreo malboro teko okto uno air lio teo-o kepi-o ice milo fiza-0; etc etc. -_______________________-

2009-11-25T00:44:00.006+08:00

- HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHA! just for fun eh eh eh! lol.
sorry for the unpleasant voice, we admit we're SO not talented at all but we did it just for fun. sorry for the wrong lyrics. sorry for the wrong intonation; hahha for funnnnnnn!

was during sleep over at my house; its cool to have a lil cousin so that i will have the chance to enjoy like a little kid, again. oh, she's 13 btw. and this was during midnight.

during hari raya at nenek house (dad's side) thought of not tagging along, but at the very last minute, as usual, being fickle minded, changed my mind, so rushed and just asal-boleh. had fun there! lol! because we gone crazy again over making videos.

wanted to continue craping with our nonsensical videos, but due to aisyah 'berkuman?' question we just cant help it but to laugh all the way. supposed to be berkumandang- but she heard 'berkuman' lol lol.

however, we already have our own fans, ya know. while recording, we suddenly observed there are people at the opposite block looking at us, hahah!

kay, daaah bye!

2009-11-24T22:45:00.002+08:00

omg im so contented and enjoying life, right now. so thats why i dont even bother to update my blog. hehe. btw i need to thank alot to JULIE SWEETHEART, for recommending me the zara interview, and finally im employed! and yah, i rejected perfume and cosmetic since my mum didnt allowed me to work shift. but i didnt regret at all, cos im paid way better than that, so yeah! alhamdulillah! and yeah jamilah, you better make sure that you will inform me if theres recruitment happening at cotton on, cos im still unsatisfied, I WANT TO WORK AT COTTON ON!

and oh, there are alot of pictures and videos to be uploaded, but soon okay. now im busy entertaining my cousin who sleep over at my place. and i love my boyfriend, muhammad suffiyan! ;D

2009-11-19T08:03:00.002+08:00

;( ;( ;( ;( ;(
i keep on having nightmares about my result. yeaaah, it keeps repeating the same thing, and of course, its about failing maths! ;( hey, by failing maths means that it will ruin everything! ;( oh maths, why on earth must you exist. tsk. i must have back up plans. ;(

2009-11-18T09:14:00.004+08:00

pictures above was on friday, if im not wrong. just slacked and chilled at my house, before that we headed to jalan kayu to eat thosai. hehhs. its feeling great to have cousin and boyfriend at the same time. miss you, cousin! hope to hang around soon, maybe during your off day. ;D

and this was on saturday, yeaaaaaaah! we rock! \m/ its nice having you all day long. at least, ive experienced living with you, even for only a day. i bet, by now you should know how i behave at night and so on. and, ive also seen you sleeping soundly in the middle of the night, ive heard you snoring, i also knew that you woke up in the middle of the night, just to pee! hahas! *roll eyes* OoO

the day we watched 2012 at e-hub. the movie was so draggy and doesnt make sense, at all. if it is the end of the world, then no one would ever survive, right? butt erkk, i dont really get whats the ending. and no, of course i wont believe that there are people who could survive, no one would! and oh, the day i saw twinnie, wanted to hug but felt so awkward, hehe. ;B

pictures of the daaaaaay. . HAHAH-LOL!

and yeah, now im waiting for love to wake up, cause today we're going to watch paranormal activities, weeeee ;B

2009-11-13T10:11:00.005+08:00

again, went out for job haunting. this time round to changi airport, since cousin told me that there's a walk-in interview for perfume+cosmetics. before that, baby came to my house, we chilled, played games; boxing; wrestling. and yeah, ive been abused. he was laying on my bed so i tried to let him cuddle my pet; (a hamster) by putting it around his neck, when suddenly he screamed to his loudest pitch and pushed me away. so i deserve it, i i hit myself to the edge of my bed and my left hand is swollen. tsssssk. since mum cooked, so we had our lunch first. bussed all the way to airport and alighted at t3. walked around and ate again, this time thosai. heh! so without delaying went to the office, and oh, its nice to know that i dont have to walk all the way there, i have to only sit on the trolley and being pushed by love. hah! although i was reluctant at first, hello, its so embarrassing to sit there and people around looking at you, but who cares, i dont even know them. hehe. reached there, be prepared, and there goes the interview;

the lady; so what would you do, if there's someone were to steal anything? how would you prevent it?

me; oh, i understand that such scenario could happen. so to my precautions, i would keep my eye on every customer. and if i suspected something, i would just approach them, its good and will apologize if they didnt, but if they did, then jeng jeng jeng. *grin*
. . . . .
the lady; as you know, every month you have to hit the sales target, how would you be assure that you could do it?

me; if im located outside (before the immigration thingy) i would just ask my relatives or friends to come down to my outlet, other than that, i would just greet anyone passing by and introduce them about the product. if im located inside, then i have no choice but to approach whoever passing by and give the best knowledge about the product so that they will be impressed and sure will purchase it. or maybe i will just make up stories that ive tried it before and its good, so they would even believe it. *smile*
. . . .
the lady; do you know about foreign currency?

me; oh, luckily for my olvel, i have covered that topics because it was in my syllabus. so i should know at least the basic about it.

the lady; so can i test you?
me; (fccccccccckkkkkkkkk!) erkk, ya sure. (praying so hard, hopefully the ques is easy. im suck in maths, oiiyyyy)

the lady; okay, so if US1 - s$1.50, will S$85 be lower or higher for US currency?

me; (with confident) of course the US currency.

the lady; why?!

me; (started to be shagged) erk, since US1 is 50 cent less than S$1.50, so obviously it will be lesser.

the lady; huhhh? (confused, because she said that it would be higher)

me; because from what i know, to convert we have to multiple the S$85 with US1 over S$1.50, so obviously the amount would be lower, right? (not so confident)

the lady; (take calculator and press the numbers. and smile.) ohh yaah.

me; (relieved)
. . . . .
the lady; can you handle stress, and how would you overcome it?

me; since im still schooling, sometimes i also feel stress. however, i have my own ways to overcome it, maybe by relaxing myself, take a deep breathe, or just eat, eating releases my stress. *grin* im used to being stress but i know how to overcome it. so i guess i will also be able to take the working stress too.
. . . . .
the lady; so you have no experience in cashiering, how would you be assure of taking care the money and make sure there will be no lost?

me; although im new with cashiering, i am keen to learn and willing to follow instruction. i will always make sure that ive lock the cashier box, and will be responsible for it. as theres a camera, im sure i wont dare to take the risk to steal it. *grin*
. . . .
the lady; so, you like makeups? what do you know about make ups? and what would you do to gain more knowledge about it?

me; oh ya, i love make ups eversince my sister started to use my face for trial. it makes me look nice. *smile* but i have learnt my lesson that we have to put on good quality make ups instead of the cheap-cheap one, without any brand. because before, when i wasnt working at all, i would just save my pocket money and bought those cheap ones, but turned out my face to be horrible. so from that day onwards, i will buy a good quality ones like revlon, maybelline, or sometimes mac, but it was my sister who paid for it.*smile* they are all quite expensive because they provide good quality. and i also know that, even if we didnt use any make ups, we still have to takecare of out skin, by using cleanser, toner nd moistorizer. because our skin needs nutrients too. errm, i guess about make ups, i have no problem about it, i can always ask my sister about further detail, since she has already completed and certified with make up course, so im sure she will be a good advisor, but about perfumes and other things, i will browse through the net to know more about the product and keep on updates, so that i will be able to convince my costumers.
. . .
the lady; okay so, im sherein. i will meet you on monday for final interview. come here at 10, and i will sure call you to confirm the location. and im sorry to say that, we wont pay so high as you expected, we only pay 920 + 45 monthly, since we have no uniform, so the 45 is for you to buy clothes or something. so yah, see you!

me; thank you! *smile and shake hand*
. . . .
that was the most dragging interview i have ever had, so far. it took me almost 30 mins. i smiled all the way until i met baby outside. i was so happy that i laughed all the way. so we walked around, ops no, ive been pushed around with only sitting on the trolley. we took skytrain from T3 to T1, T1 to T2, T2 to T3, haha! and yeah, ive been singing the song, 'Bengawan solo . . ' eversince love suggested me to try the interview there, so everyday i will be bringing nice tasty cakes. haha! dream on, i wont! ' Bengawaaan solooooooo. . '' haha!

but the only thing that is worrying me now, would my mum allow me to work shift. the shift will be like 6pm to 1am, 6am to 1pm, and so on. how how how? i badly need a job, and i like this job!

oh, btw, thanks baby for the company, as always. and thanks cousin for the recommendation. if only you can join me there, working together, DITCH WATSON LAAAAAAA! haha ;D

and we saw shahidah! hehe. but she was in the bus with her love, so didnt get to shake hand or something. hey babe, thanks for the concern. & miss yaaa! lets take 291 together, and dont alight until we reach our destination(!!)

2009-11-11T20:53:00.004+08:00

.''AMACIAM PEOPLE? WE ARE DONE!

OMG, i feel like running naked now. omg!''

im sure you know what im referring to. yes, O LEVEL IS DONE! however, the result really scares me. sigh. oh btw, that was a msg from julie, i received that right after i stepped out from the examination hall, really i tell you! but no, i wont dare to run naked, i dont want to take the risk, but watching you will be just fine. haah!. and yes babe, i miss you too, LETS HANG OUT SOON! omg, this is soo cool! \m/

so yeah, ive been haunting for job(!!!) with above people. ive tried and ive filled countless of forms, writting my number and name everywhere, yet the only one who gets back to me, is mini toons. im actually okay with it, but i quite dislike the location. comfirm paiseh leeeey! the mall will be busy/packed with all sorts of people, for sure! and ill bump with many familiar faces. so im being so fussy, asking for other location and until now i have no yet received any updates. sigh.

but its okay, i find it fun! haha. furthermore, its cool to hang out with cousin. since peah (her love) tagged along too, it means that we're having a couple date. well, its not a date actually. more to an outing. and so, it will make suffiyan to be more socialize. but yeah, we have more outings ahead, so lets rock! \m/

and baby, no matter what goes wrong,
we will always stay strong, right?
i love you, two theree four, forever;
Muhammad Suffiyan Muhd Saffiie.

2009-11-08T19:21:00.006+08:00

As the days pass by, you got deeper and deeper entangled in my life. you are my sunlight which shines so bright and without you ill be in a total darkness, without knowing where im heading to, by just walking straight, following my next step, thats how dull and boring my day would be. but with you, it will be completely different. i can even run to a place which i dont know, as long as you are with me. even when we're lost for places to go, went blank of ideas what to do, there are sure things to talk about and laugh at. you are just the right amount for my ecstacy. Thats how much I need you. Not solely because you make everything a laughing matter for me, especially with your 'chikong panas' all the way, even when you are at LongJohnSilver, or because you never failed to say that im pretty everytime we meet up although on that day i feel so miserable, or because you never failed to say that im sweet whenever i did a surprise or because you never failed to say im prettier than other girls when the fact that they are actually way prettier than me, but its just because you have always been there; on my lowest low, and my highest high, you always here with me. without you, i would just feel hollow.You are the one who links everything around me together. making it complete.

You never failed to sparkle my day and make my smile shines brighter. hey, who cares if you are younger than me, but for me You have just the right amount of maturity, fun, childish, flirts, sensitivity, love all wrapped in one. You know when i needed you to be serious or playful. you just get me. sometimes you even know me better than i do, especially when im jealous but when i denied, and you will start saying, ''jeles eh b, alala. hahaa!'' you can even laugh, idiot! or worst, when im being so ego and i said i want a break up and said that im so going to find a better guy, he will finely said, ''eh, nk break? okay. last long eh!'' cause you know me well, i didnt mean any of my words when im mad, and just blurted anything that came into my mind but you know that at the end of the day i will sure turn back to you.

I dont know what do this strong feeling called but i guess im having a love orgasm right now. like a gush of love for my darling. i just couldnt imagine how my life would be without him. tsssk. sometimes I wonder. What makes me deserve him. I wasn't the perfect girlfriend before. I cheated, I lied, I purposely hurt. im long waiting for karma to hit me back, but im praying so hard, not this time. I'd do anything for my baby. but It wasnt all fine and dandy though, we do had some fights. but im still trying to be the best. everytime i hurt suffiyan, the look of hurt of disappointment in his face and voice really broke my heart. espec ially when he tear in front of me, that will be my weakest point. All I could think was.. how could i??? im sorry for putting my ego on top. its just me. but deep down my heart, immense regret filled my heart. it was just horrible. but still, you are the one who will come to me and hug me, and keep saying that you love me, and eveything's going to be alright.

Suffiyan is a really patient guy. the only one i've ever met. Even if I did something that would hurt him or piss him off, he wont yell his head off, or even curse me like i always did. even when im at fault but i denied, and in return point it to him, He would still talk in a matter of fact voice and he would still sayang2 me that would make me just stop feeling the anger or sadness. He calms me down everytime im out of control. Even when I whine and whine nonstop, h e would listen and comfort me and always forgive me before i apologize. he is the one who always make things right, eventhough I AM TO BE BLAMED. hehe.

im just feeling so lucky to have met him, to even own him. i never thought of meeting such awesome sweetest guy, like him. i dont mind about the bad terms, every couples have that too, the thing is now, i love you so much, muhammad suffiyan. im sorry for all my mistakes. i just didnt mean any of those. you are the most greatest coolest thing that ever happen to me, so far.
i love you. i dont want to lose you. may we last, forever, amin!

2009-11-07T09:53:00.014+08:00

i am only left with one paper, which is next week, with only exactly an hour to complete. yes, that means that, i will officially end my olevel pretty soon! but guess what, ive already start enjoying and pretend that im over it. hehe. so, overall i find olevel are manageable except MATHS! okay fine, actually it was easy if only i mentor that subject, but well, i am not good at all since i was a kid, and now i seriously have no confident on it. just hoping the moderation will help me to get at least a c6 or better, please. while the rest, i find it quite easy, somehow. and if only i study a little more, i could do it better. but now, im so relieved that, there is no need for me to stay up late for night studying, no more sleeping in living room instead on my bed, no more feeling so stress up and having nightmares, but no, result is a big nightmare for me -_____- so, for now im just praying and hoping the best. i did my best, i really did.

last day hanging out, before o level officially started! but we did study maths and formats, on that day for like 4 to 5 hours? afterwards then our boyfriends came to pick us up. btw, is fun to have cousin around me again, miss her alot okay!

and yes, we went to jurong swimming pool on thursday. enjoy sakaan ah abeh! meeting point at tampines and we spent about 45 mins in the mrt to our destination. i guess more, because we dropped by jurong point for lunch, to await the heavy rain to stop. so reached chinese garden station around 1plus. we walked to our destination with excitement; see!

we had a great time there! with the slides, (applause to love and cousin for overcoming their fears of height, they did go for the rides although intially both refused to) ;D the funny parts when we keep toppling over when we tried to get into one float. and so on. afterwards had another eating session at KFC, (again, although initially or should i say actually, love and cousin dont like KFC, but they finally went in). each of us were too exhausted to continue our next destination which we thought of going to arcade. haha! so we decided to call it a day.

and yesterday, thought of spending our day, chilling around. but borders had an adertisment of hiring, so we decided to give it a try. but we had the wrong information, haha! we still continue searching for job, we even tried esprit, topshop, armani jeans, isetan. so meanwhile, just wait. or maybe we will continue our searching on monday.

as usual, on the very first second of every 7th of the month, i will never fail to receive messages, and even how exhausted/sleepy i am, i will force my eyes to open widely and read it,

"i love you today, tomorrow, and forever after baby! ive said it, forever, and i really do mean it. the love we shared since 7th july 2008 is a never ending story honey. im so happy to have someone, a beutyangel like you, sweetheart! happy 16th monthsarry sayaaang! <3 ''

'' My only Fathini Khairiah, you taught me the meaning of love when you came into my life. now, its already our 16th monthsarry. im so happy baby, we are together, a true love so strong & deep. we've made it through the rain & storm, its so impossible to break us apart. darling, i love you forver, my love is true. there's no other woman in this world can ever take your place to fulfill my dreams together with you. through thicks & thins, you never let me down honey. i still remember the day, the very first day i heard your sweetest voice. the wonderful feeling i felt in my heart, is still going on strong till now, so beutiful, so pure, true & passionate. ive loved you from the minute i said so. loving you is just like breathing, i dont have a choice. you've always melt my heart.i'll always love you now & forever. that's a promise i'll always keep baby!. HAPPY 16TH MONTHSARRY! <3 "

i have nothing much to say, except, i do love you too, muhammad suffiyan! <3

2009-10-24T17:17:00.002+08:00

due to O's, we've been lacking of catching up with each other. ive been revising all the way at home until at times, i totally ignored him. so we did a quick catch up and spent time together. day one, which on monday, we went to east coast. chilled at the beach for not more than an hour, then had dinner at MacDonald, at the exact place we met before. he recap every single moves of mine, where at that time, both of us, still malu malu kucing, meow meow. and off home. and as for wednesday, after being well-prepared for science practical which falls on the next day, decided to release my tension by swimming. so my sister and his brother tagged along. had fun, released everything, and had lunch and off home.

well suffiyan, i will never get enough of you. there will always be things to discover and talk about eveytime we meet. there will always be jokes to laugh at, things to be shared together, happiness to be feel together. even to my hardest time, you will always be there to keep me on top. to raise up my spirits and always being supportive. ive done my part, and i hoping the best ahead. thanks for everything, love!
im grateful for your presence. may we last forever. i love you!

2009-10-23T18:20:00.000+08:00

and yes julie, i was browsing through, and i found this.
hahah! yeaa, all the be to you too, babe! gd luck yeah! ;D
meet up sooooon! we rox \m/

2009-10-17T09:23:00.002+08:00

yes jamilah, me too.
i never regret knowing each of these monkeys. despite the fights, gossips, jealousy and the list goes on, we do care for each other.
i never want to end this awesome friendship bond we have created, as its way to awesome that we sometimes dont even care about the harsh words, the straight forward talk, and so on, as we totally regard each other as siblings.
i never want to lose any of you and still keep in touch although we wont meet each other everyday, anymore (haha! but i dont think so they attend classes everyday)
i never want to come to an end whereby each of us have to go our own ways and if someday we bump into each other, we act as if we dont know each other.
im soo gonna miss all of you, including the irritating staffs, which the nasi lemak tudung, mulut murai becok, kakak step lawa, kakak mate lebam, and all the weird names you guys named them. and also, having break at teh tarik which supposed to be 15 mins but we extended it to almost 1 hour. especially, the lectures who always be patient towards out uncontrollable behaviours.

i will sure miss having a full house class; where initially during starting of the months, everyone with a high-spirits came to school PUNCTUALLY for EVERY lesson and SPENT 3 HOURS together. still, that will never be enough.

please keep in touch okay, friends! i love you, guys! we rock! \m/

2009-10-14T08:24:00.009+08:00

yeaaah, we jalan raya, like finally right! hah. was fun, i did enjoyed~ we rented a van and Aisyah drove her car as each of us dont want to take public transport with raya outfits on, because hari raya seems over already! haha! but, i didnt go to julie's house which is the last house, whereby that time was already 1030 and we are still at Tampines, and due to a reason, i didnt go. tsk. wanted to meet her badly! but its okay. & also, the most part, didnt salam-menyalam between us. tsk.

and to love, just chill okay. i do know how you feel. and i know it wasn't your fault. im sorry, i cant offer you any help, as i cant do anything. but just to remain you calm. with that, just believe that everything's going to be just right. Allah is fair, right? he wont torture who is innocent. he won't let you suffer. Just take this, as a lesson. ader hikmah disebaliknye. i'll pray for you that, this will alright pretty soon!good luck for your result, baby!

2009-10-11T03:12:00.009+08:00

15th monthsarry outing.

i know, last pose was so candid! haha! bonus picture of the day! wooo! and the picture before it, was also another idead by love. he said that i look like so-bohsia wearing that outfit, furthermore when i was walking, the road is empty with a lot of bikes along the road, so ape lagi, own the road ah!

Just now, jalan raya!

see, how close they are with their 'uncle susu' haha! everytime they meet me, the first thing they will say, 'nak kol uncle susu,' haha! sajaaaak laaa tuuuh! minum susu bnyk bnyk okay, cik, jadi tulang kuat! haha! ;D

Roller-blading day!

after falling umpteen of times, finally im quite stable now. after being taught by the boy in green tee above. hee, love ya!

2009-10-11T02:34:00.008+08:00

alright, im updating with a quick post here. btw, this is my 100th post, finally im sticking to one, instead of deleting and creating a new one.

Today suddenly had the vibe of jalan raya, so decided to tag along with family.

was average, but because having the two kids around (my sister's kids) will never be a waste. i will never get enough of them. they are just simply irresistible; effing cute! so yeah, after all the relatives houses are done, last house to love's house. im so sorry to cramp your house, baby. haha!
upon reaching his crib,

FINA; auntie, kte nak pegy ruma uncle susu eh?
ME; yeh! fina kene salam tau, kan fina da kenal, dah okay, so tkmo malu lagi tau.
FINA; fina da tk takot da. *with her face expression*
suddenly. . ; relek ah wei, keco ah dowh! (and yes, she said exactly that!) oh man, hancor!
KAKAK; uncle susu tuh sape? afa' kalau kat ruma asek sebut jer name tuh.
ME; tuh suffiyan la. haha!
*badan same kering, name pun terpahat di hati la, haha!*

so yeah, reached his door step and saw mummy preparing things, and i feel guilty for bringing a bunch of people; full house ah konon. haha! boooo!

AISYAH; kak kat mane?
ME; ruma abang yan. adek?
AISYAH; kat ruma. really? with who?
ME; dgn family kakak la. dorng tengah rancak bebual nih.
AISYAH; woah best nyer! oh, berunding psl nk masok meminang eh?
ME; agaknyer laa nih.
AISYAH; siak jer! semoge berjaye!

how i wish, it really happen one day. hehehs ;D

Roller-Blading Day on Friday. Instead of attending Social Studies class, i went back and love came over. cooked for him, had lunch and had our own time at my corridor roller-blading, fooling around with my hamster, and such. together with my sister, shifa'. so basically, nothing much, just spent a plain simple time together.

Our 15th Monthsarry was on the 7th; as usual get ourselves free and catch up with each other. we wanted to go ice-skating but due to some reason, we went bowling. well, of course i won! booohoooo! Suffiyan is a Loser! ;P catch movie, ate, round the mall and call it a day. due to kallang leisure park is so deep inside we're lazy to travel, but to cabbed home. happy 15th baby, i didnt realized that we have gone this far, i felt its just yesterday you added me at friendster and i just accepted it. hehs. but there are still countless of things waiting us ahead, so get prepared. for most, thanks for being patience with me throughout this. i love you, baby!

2009-10-04T08:53:00.002+08:00

im sorry for being useless. i know, im the worst. im sorry for shouting at you. i know im heartless. im sorry for the words. please know, i didnt mean any single of that. *hugs*

2009-10-03T08:59:00.003+08:00

you were like, the apple to my pie.the caramel to my frappe. the cheese to my aunt anne bun. the sweetest to my reality. the one to the numbers of infinity. the first to my love. i had and will never regret having you as mine. you are the perfect lullaby. *winks* thanks for everything, love! especially the pink fresh rose, i love it! <3 you never fail to make my day, i just love you too much, beyond anything. *hugs*
and baby, im anxiously waiting for our 15th. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

2009-09-27T11:34:00.003+08:00

pardon for my MIA-ing. i have been busy with im not so sure what. haha!
i know ive missed a lot of great events here; like. .

MY 17TH BIRTHDAY! ;D

thanks a lot for the wishes, gifts, surprises. i appreciate a lot, oh thanks! ;D
but sadly, i only received one birthday cake this year which is from baby!
i had a great night! i had a great surprise! i had a great day! and yes,
i received a 500ml pink gucci rush II perfume from i dont know who (?)
i dont care and i dont wish to know who, the things is, i loveeee the smell!

HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

yes, i apologize for any of my wrong deeds. i hope im forgiven. let's start a new.
basically, hari raya wasnt so great unlike last two year's. becos unfornately, last year
and this year i have to bring along my blue-lined notebook which compact with formulas
and point forms during visitings. please, be over soon, and i will be the most delighted person on earth that no one will ever feel it, okay fake! well, it has been two consecutive years, celebrating with love, and was so touched to meet him in the morning of raya. *hugs*

PRELIMS

due to raya fever, i didnt do well unlike the previous exams. but i somehow improved my weakest subject but flopped for my already stable subject. HAHA! as i got a B3 for humanities which i have always been doing well for geog but did not for ss that pulls down my mark to c5. and got a D7 for science which i have been getting A1 or 2 for the previous, but becos i only sat for paper I and II and didnt turn up for paper III and practical becos that day was on the eve of raya, who want to layan man! haha! so i deserve it. im left with less than THREE WEEKS!
the only thing on my mind is, HOW TO BUCK UP FOR MY MATHS? -__- ;(
and yah, TO IMPROVE MY COMPREHENSION?! oh Allah, have mercy on me. i need you.

okay bye! (:
pictures? lazy ahhhhh! ;B

2009-09-15T07:16:00.002+08:00

and for now, i would like to officially announce that,
its even less than 24 hours, booooo! ;D

oh, im getting older soon, NO WAAAAY!
but at least, sooner i can proudly say to love,
EH ! IM EXACTLY A YEAR OLDER THAN YOU, OKAY!
geeees!

im totally drained out and feel so lethargic after hours of revising,
two hours from now, ill be sitting for geography and follow by maths 2,
braaaaaain squeezing day for me! -_____________________-
or maybe, weeek for meee, and after that, HARI RAYAAAAAAA!
*jumps till tergolek* okay byyyyyeeeee!

2009-09-10T11:57:00.003+08:00

i love everyone in this picture, of course including myself la.

now, im at airport, studying with babyboy beside me,

he's now membebeling about the renovation held here,

so i have to listen and just uh uh, yeaaah! okay bye! ;D

oh my! 40 FOURTY MORE DAYS TO O'LEVEL!

*FAINTS*

2009-09-09T02:29:00.003+08:00

hello people! instead of sleeping at this hour, ive been awake by messages and i just cant get myself back to sleep. there are few reasons why; and here it goes.

firstly, i was over-enjoyed and extremely blessed not to forget, im bloated to the extent whereby my tummy can explode anytime. iftar with yan's family at Concorde hotel to celebrate their 18th anniversary; or easily said ours and theirs. {both of us just get informed that his parents anni is on the 8th; a day after ours, which means, we celebrate our monthsarry together. ;D the initial plan was to study at Tamp Library, since i over-slept right after i ate my medicine because i had stomach pain in the morning, thought of having a short nap but over-extended. the point is, i missed my geog class so i have to do my own revision, but when i was about to leave house received a msg from love begging me to dress up well, that makes me wonder why. so called him, and i was told that mummy asked me to tag along and study was canceled. so yeah, i spent nearly an hour fitting myself what to wear. i hate this part when meeting his family that will make my heart pumps faster than usual and my palms will easily get sweat and i will try my best 'to delay time' kind of thing. even love noticed that when we are about to reach his house. after convincing me, i feel relieved and make our way there. awww, i miss mummy so much! last time we met was during love's birthday which on may? haha! so slacked at his house and at the same managed to finish up my leftover maths task while waiting for ayah. once ayah reached off we go. the food was delicious and we are being seated right beside a baby pool. heees. since the buffet ends at 10, i love ayah's trick; he ate and pray magrib and continue eating and pray isyak, and continue eating for the last lap. so, each of us did exactly in order to maximize the space of our tummies. after which, we went to marina barrage, had a long walk and cam-whored. while otw home, me and love cant take it anymore but to give a rest to ourselves in the car. so, to ayah and ibu, Happy anniversary! may you last till death. i love you both! thanks for treating me just like your own. *hugs*

secondly, i was awake upon receiving the message from two of my sweetest mates, Jamilah and Aisyah Zin. i was so touched that i teared down right after i finish reading both. you guys are being so sweet that add up my happiness for today. afterwards,i cant get myself to sleep. the moments of us being together keep playing on my sight which some make me smiled while some make me cry even louder.

Jamilah Bte Jamil, thank you so much for the message! firstly, i was touched by the words, but for most i was touched because ive been chosen to be sent to; yes me (?!) although, at first we're not as close as now, because you choose to hang around with your first batch friends, like nadia's ain and so on. and you are so quiet at that point of time, but at the same time, i was the listening ear for haddy's and hanafi's (idk what it call) who keep on saying 'aku nak jamilah, dier lawa ah, tolong aku, kte tgok ah sape yang dapat, and that kind of thing. i still remember the day, we went to karaoke, and they both sang the camelia song, but changed to jamilah, arent they just sweet? ;B round of applause to haddy, who succeed to capture your heart. and also, when you guys are still under going the process, he assure that i know every single detail and seek my help. everything until up to how to propose you, oh okay no, to make you his. may you both last forever! put aside about him, now us. as days pass by, we are slowly becoming closer, and i noticed we somehow have quite a number of common interests. well, you and i, will forever be partner on being a hardcore fan of 'cotton on', right? ;D

Aisyah Zin, another unexpected message to receive it from you. thank you so much! let me tell you now, i envy you from the very first day of orientation until now. ive been eyeing on you, everytime i saw you, i will look you from head to toe and only wish to be you. i just love the way you are. its deniable that you are awesome! its also unexpectable that we are considered as close, because we rarely have conversation together like the others did. i seriously dont know, why i cant be outspoken and out going to interact with you, as i feel a shy and paiseh kind of feeling that stop me. yes, to you and jamilah. is like, hey, i dont have standard to talk to you, or something. it sounds nuisance, but it is really happening, ya know! -_- that's the reason why i acted way differently through faces rather than fluently through computer screen. haha! random.
whatever isit, kawen jangan lupe jemput okay! ;D

to the other mates, a simple note to tell you, i love you guys! yes, we are coming to an end soon enough, just to let you know i enjoy having friends like you guys. although we have our own clans, we still consider others as friend. i just love our togetherness. put aside all the bad sides; which include the gossiping, criticizing; hurting any of you by any means, im sorry if i accidentally did it, well, none of us ever escape from doing it, whether its intentional or not. i sincerely forgive you guys also, and wont keep any grudge or something. if maybe some still unsatisfied about the teacher's day organization, im sorry, i did for the school sake, that's it.i hope our friendship will still keep on going even when we are separated. good luck for your O's, mates!

Nur Diyana, i feel lost when on monday i didnt receive your waking call, i didnt get to see you around in school, i didnt get to bitch with you about anything that came across, i didnt get to complain things to you, i didnt get to share stories because the fact that you wont be coming to school anymore! yes, ive been depending on you since my first day in JBS. you were there during all of the moments ive gone through, you stand for me, you convinced me, you cheered me, you mad when i was, you cried when i did. youve been a great companion throughout my journey in JBS. i hope, you wont forget me, and still keep in touch although we wont be meeting everyday, anymore. you know that i dont want to lose any of my friends, anymore. losing my bestest friend ever, is enough to torture me, although you cant totally replace her, but your efforts did. you are indeed, my best friend also a sister to me. you deserve to be called as best friend.
i love you, without any doubt. i miss you! good luck for your N's! ;B

of course, i wont give it a miss to mention about love, you are just amazing! having you in my life makes it great. im contented with my current life with everyday waking up in the morning knowing that somebody call 911, eh eh no, somebody is loving me unconditionally. even when i turned into a monster, you still patiently cool me down, just like yesterday. when i dont know what was into me, i suddenly shut down myself because he didnt buy me the jeans i wanted (haha! i know, im shameful to expect him to buy it for me) because he has an exact amount to buy for himself. yet, to be fair, he didnt buy any and so do i. but he bought me a perfume and accessory (which i directly said that its not nice and i dont want, but actually i was so touched that he spent for me instead of himself. and today, he bought a perlini silver's necklace, when i only hint him a little bit. boooo! ;B i just love you without any doubt. thanks for existing in my life.

next,
i want to get myself back on my lovely bed(!!) its calling me already! oh ya, did i mention that i dragged myself all the way to my brother's room, (who is now not yet home, yes both! -_-) because my lappy its locked in my parents room, JUST TO POST THIS. hehe. & pictures arent with me, ill post once i have it, alright? & HAH! serve you right to read this long post of mine, read one day one paragraph as to await for my upcoming post which i dont know when will it be. ;D takecare people!

2009-08-29T18:45:00.003+08:00

pardon for my lack of updates this lately, ive been busy with my days were all compact with schedules, so i have no leftover time to blog. however, today seems to be my 'break-time'. i have leisure time to spend and spare some thoughts for myself after a long operating days. even mum consented to my thought of not attending my science practical as she witness how lethargic i am these few days. ive been awake until late nights to entirely complete my geography note and also the teacher's day cards and preparation. i swear, i wont get myself involved anymore with all these organization or something. instead of wanting to help, ive been blamed all over. okay, i wont brag things here, let it remain in school. but, im still deeply disappointed and it was so disheartening.
on a lighter note, i managed to get those cards ready on time, and put up some program involving both teachers & students. and also i will come out with awards like, 'the most kancong yet enthusiastic teacher, the most boring yet wisest teacher, and such. we're lack of people to represent our class, to worst, i just get informed that i have to be the M.C. of the day. which means, i cant be working together with classmates to excel our program. things get into mess after one another. but i just hope the best for the outcome, may our hard works will end with satisfaction.

i had my English oral last week, and i find it easy; i mean easier than Malay. since it was all about disabled people, which im experiencing it everyday facing my disabled auntie who lives with my grandma nearby my house. speaking of which, i had B3 and a distinction for my Malay. i thought of retaking, but mum disallowed me, as she said i could do something else in order to improve my grades, which is, score better for other subjects. somehow its true but im still in doubt. for the simplest subject; malay, i cant managed to get any better than that, what else for other subjects? but, i believe with great determination and ample of revision, it will be paid off, Insya Allah. Also, my result for CA2 is improving. as the day is getting nearer to O'levels, im shivered. im so scared, and i keep on thinking of nightmares that i didnt make or smtg. oh please, give me some mercy! ;(

oh ya! today is the 8 day of fasting; which is 8th of Ramadhan. Happy Ramadhan! it may sounds so late, but this is the only opportunity to wish you all. so far, ive only missed the first 3 days and hoping to fulfill the rest. having to pass by Geylang everyday for School makes me less interested to go Geylang. I mean, its a habitual for all of us to go Geylang every fasting month, due to the Bazaar held which sell many varieties of delicious and tempting food, all kinds of designed clothes and stuffs. but yesterday, baby has been a good persuader who managed to bring me round the bazaar from end to end. ive been eyeing for this particular bag since ages, and i found it there with an affordable price, but sadly, i have no kechings$. after which, break fast at the place where babes celebrated my birthday last year, (i seriously miss each of you) and did our prayers at Arqam; which baby pronounce as Aqram. HAHA!

uhuh, im also having an exact thought like deedyy does, is there any readers who reads my blog regularly? if i were to say, there's none, how does the counter's number keep on increasing rapidly, although i only put it since i changed my skin. nevermind, let it be a mysterious, the thing is now i managed to lenghten my post as long as possible, to kill time. clock please be fast, i want to break fast with the delicious chewy juniors which ive been yearning for since i left KL; where the first time i taste it, ohmy! okay, shall stop this and get all prepared. SELAMAT BERBUKA, SEMUA! (;

2009-08-20T09:42:00.003+08:00

finally, i had the time to change my blog skin ;D
Every Thursday will be an off day for me, since ive sat for the malay June paper, so i dont have to attend the classes anymore. speaking of which, i actually should have received my result by yesterday, but due to the school management and such, ive not yet received a letter which contains my password that i need in order to access to the account. so until now, im still restless about my result while the other must have enjoyed upon their good results or some may be feeling down (those who didnt make it; but i doubt no one fails malay (?); and im here still waiting and waiting. =.=

on a brighter side, i enjoyed the trip to Incineration plant with classmates on the past two days. ive learnt a lot, especially about where does all those rubbish in Singapore goes to, after been thrown into the cute little greeny froggy lorries. Then, the following processes after being sent to the place. it was priceless. Surprisingly, there's only a few workers there who's managing the tonnes of rubbish. what do you expect, everything is under technical control, that is only needed to be supervised. luckily we came in a small number of people, that had given me the chance to control the gear of a huge crane which carry whatever amount of rubbish i caught from the rubbish dumps and dumps it into the furnace. its exactly like how the kids at time zone are playing, but the different part is, i caught rubbish while they got a prize =.=

heyys, i love my classmates! they are the most supporting classmates ive ever been with. especially upin and idris.(due to yesterday's incident only, hah!) yesterday was supposed to be a photo taking session. so we have to dress up nicely whereby upin & idris decided to dress up as a 'JI' people. imagine, with their jubah's, serban's; OMG! they were so cute! not to forget, the person who leads this uninvited militant group, syariffudin. SAJAAK LA KORANG! ~
however, the others rock too! i envy the way the manage thier time, especially Hafizah. she's too amazing! she's working and at the same time did well in her studies. please la, may i know how on earth you succeed in managing your time. cause im totally sucks in it! so, all the best my beloved fellow classmates; i love you guys! ;D

Ramadhan's coming in few days time. it means, fasting month. i hope, ill be someone better upon Ramadhan's approach. may it will get me to the right path, I seek for Allah's guidance and direction. Insya Allah. and it also means, Hari Raya's coming. hehe. keching keching $$ on my way. & its going to be my second time celebrating with baby, any recommended colours? green? black? pink? ;D
but oh no, i cant enjoy to the maximise, again. i have no problems dealing wih that, since last year ive been in that situation before, everywhere i go, with notes in hand. but no, doesnt mean that i will put aside my hari raya for O-levels, i mean i will, but not fully, the point is now,
i want to celebrate Hari Raya; no matter what condition (!!) ;D

okay, enough. i know, i should have do something in order to know my result. so, instead of waiting without any outcome, im better off to school to speak to the admins. pffffft.

2009-08-17T21:04:00.002+08:00

is this how our friendship should end? huhhh! i seriously dont understand with 'that' kind of people who acted 'oh so nice' in front of us, talked cockkk ahhh! dont pretend while you're actually not being yourself. please laaaaa, like as if im just born yesterday that makes me so stupid to not know how do a hypocrite acts like? after reading this, please just dont bother about me/my life if you feel that im bothering you while actually im not because you're the who is soo bother to read my blog that is bothering you because you bother to link me that makes you bother to click on my name and bother to read my long but actually not so long post and even pretend nice as to tell me you're bothering me, hais. why of all people, you decided to bother me? we are on different path already, babe! *disappointment face*

and yes, my boyfriend name is suffiyan,
but his Full Name is Muhammad Suffiyan Saffii,
thank you. ;D

2009-08-16T00:17:00.003+08:00

oh well, my weekdays started off well. i spent the whole day with love from as morning as 8am to another 12 hours, together. due to our tight schedule during the weekdays, we enjoyed today to the fullest that explain why im too exhausted, until i have to type this with my lappy on my tummy while laying on my bed. im forcing my eyes to be awake cos i feel its still too early to end my saturday. all my energy has been used up for today's activities, especially the walking marathon at fort canning. so as to occupy my time, i shall just share about today.

we have not been watching movies together for nearly two months (?) so we trained to hit The Cathay as early as 1035 to watch 'where got ghost' (its a local comedy, btw) and i swear i dont want to elaborate much, one word; regret! wasted 10 bucks for 'oh-so-boring-lame-*yawn*-' movie. baby is to blame because he's the one who chosen that movie. *smacks his butt* of course im not satisfied at all so i keep on nagging about how lousy the movie is, all the way till we reached carefour. hahhh! of all places eh (!!) cos im so disappointed, i thought by visiting cotton on it will cheer me up, but no, its under renovation that even add up my bad mood to a worsen mood. since baby knows me well, food will always turn up my mood so that's the reason why we went to carefour. bought junk foods and drinks and headed to fort caning. its so tiring to get up the staircases which goes on and on, my legs loosen, man! hahh! as we reached there, talked, ate, as usual i will just entertain his nonsensical ideas/actions/ and so on. once we finished eating, i swear my tummy is like a three to four months pregnant lady's tummy; so baby put his head near to my tummy and start saying, 'eh dier tendang ah' , 'i dgr heartbeat die' lol! but seriously, i want babies! they are so adorable, arent they? especially when their first time saying, 'mama' 'papa' awwwwwwwwww!- okay next!

both of us supposed to attend classes but we didnt. i ditched sci pract, again. hehh! and i persuaded baby to also postpone his tuition, thanks ah mummy for allowing him to do so, hehh! so we bussed to grandlink for karaoke. but we're too lethargic due the so much walking, so we sang without our heart's willing so that is equal to waste of money again. hahah! however, we did enjoy it!

thought of going to beach, but our legs didnt allow us to do so, we're lacked of energy already. so baby sent me home, and both dozed off in the bus. oh, uhhh! today we had fart's carnival. i know it sounds so disgusting, but both of us keep farting. we apologize for adding up the pollution in the air, boooooo!~

2009-08-10T19:12:00.003+08:00

please tell me how great it is to have your boyfriend together with you while watching the fireworks. awesome isnt?
that is exactly what i felt yesterday night, it feels like there's only me and you among the packed crowds. i love you boyfriend ♥
despite love was having a headache, he came all the way from serangoon (his relative's wedding) to sengkang to fetch me and bussed all the way to City Hall. while on our way, it was seriously sickening when other passengers were making a loud noise especially when it comes from matreps. OHMY! they even took LG and sniff glue in the bus, and oh so surprisingly they were still kids, i assumed. and of all places on earth they sat exactly right behind of us. so we have to stand all their nonsenses during the journey. once we reached City hall, it was another sickening thing, everyone was like a sardine in a large wide breadth x height of can that contains the whole loads of people there. so we have to patiently walk pass through the crowds to find a suitable place. we took nearly an hour for us, until we gave up and decided to sit at outside marina square. before that we bought some snacks and drinks from 7-eleven; its a store and more. boooo~ i had fun yesterday despite the small arguments. thanks love ♥

however, im on the verge of giving up already. hais. i dont know how long should i be patient anymore. well, patience has it limits, and so do mine. until when i have to keep pretending that im okay where actually im not. but im sorry, i have to move on in life; my future. i wish you all the best in your upcoming life and true love cause this time round i seriously cant take it anymore. this thing has been prolong for quite some time. and i hate it! i feel like smacking/kicking/punching until im freaking satisfied! i'd loved you so much, but now my love for you is totally fading. GoodBye Mr.Blogger. but im still in consideration whether to accept onSugar's or LiveJournal's Proposal. bwahhahaah! ;D

fcking NO! im not referring to love (!!) hahah!
booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~

2009-08-08T19:16:00.001+08:00

these recent days was awesome. i managed to do a lot of revision, be it in the mrt, bus, or even on my way to meet baby. now then i realized that it is not a waste to bring along books wherever i go, as long as i will take it out and read whatever that it contains and absorb into my brain, at least it benefits me. yes, i really really have to back ups and start to absorb all the information needed to get myself well prepared. but somehow, i need company to study together with me, so at least when i get stuck, theres someone to ask. for all this while, ive been keeping those unanswered questions to myself because i just cant find the time to ask anyone. so, whoever is free and willing to accompany me, you're welcome. bwhaha!

yes, i know i missed a thing. on the 07; HAPPY 13TH MONTHSARRY, boyf♥
it feels so fast time flies that we've already reach this far. although our journey fulls with ups and downs, third-party, distractions, but im glad we managed to overcome and keep our love stronger. i know there are more to come, so may we will be strong enough to keep our love going on. i know you're the right one for me to stay with, and i really hope our dreams will come true, amin! may we last forever, baby. after so long i didnt say this, im sorry baby for all the causes ive made. i know, most of the time im the one who causes the arguements between us. hehh! pasal saye sayang awak! ♥

and im sorry too. i know some of my friends might be disappointed with the changes in me. i realized, and i even want to get back to the path that i should be. everyone changes, be it to bad or good. maybe yes, ive been influenced by my surroundings and globalization. i know its wrong, but give me time to adapt back to the lifestyle i used to be. however, Allah is the almighty. i still do turn to him for direction. may this coming Ramadhan leads me back to the path and may Allah open up my heart. Amin!

2009-08-02T21:10:00.000+08:00

*jumps* baby is back. eventually when baby's away i managed to be independent. weee~
actually, i dont intend to blog about saturday, cause it was seriously a pain in the ass. it was a bad day, i should say. i started off, so dull and get pissed by my own reaction of being so ego that ive missed the chance to overnight with baby through phone as plan. i was 50/50 whether or not to go to sci pract, and finally i did after 3 times ditched it for enjoyment purposes.it was fun cause we've been repeating the same thing twice for each experiment since Idris's presence. HAHA! okay next. each of us dont have any plan, especially me (!!) cause usually saturday will be a day spent with baby,but since he's not around, ive been like a lost kid; for a day. tagged along with shariffudin, idris, jems and upin. we talked alot, or should i say gossiped, uh that sounds better. about the current hottest topic. nyahahs. walked all the way to fort canning, for? nothing, yes nothing. but it is worth since ive not been there before. next, proceed all the way to marina square. can you imagine, the walking distance from bugis to fort canning to marina square, that explain why my slipper was torn. but yeay, at last, i get to eat my anderson's ice cream (!!) after so long been yearning for it. yumms. i insisted of buying a new slipper as i still can walk with my new different design on my pair of slipper. chilled for awhile and watched the NDP preview and separated. another embarrassing moment, when i thought of taking bus at the usual bustop, but once i reached the front door of esplanade, one of the officer asked me where am i going and i said to the bustop, he smiled and said the bustop is not operating. i quickly walked back to jems and upin, luckily they're not far ahead. pfft. on my way home, received a call from ibu so i headed home and canceled the plan of meeting cousin. around midnight, ibu wake me up and asked me to accompany her to JB and i did. but no, i didnt change or dress up, which means i went to JB with my Winnie The Poo Pyjamas on ;P
Today, work was fun. everyone's being so friendly as today is the last day of work and it will only be continued after hari raya. yes, im sad. cox i wont get my allowance which means i wont have extra money to pamper myself. ;( besides that, i will miss my work mates, especially the makciks keco whose never fail to brighten up my sundays. im gonna miss work. okay bye!

2009-08-01T00:12:00.000+08:00

i know baby wont be satisfied until i write a note or simply said, proper farewell for him.
Muhammad Suffiyan Saffii, for the the third time in this year, you're going to leave me, again. i have to go through my days without any of you messages and calls. you know that, without your morning calls/messages my day will be dull. so thats a hint for you to at least give me a call once in a day when you're there, okay boyfie? ;D play safe when you're taking any rides there. dont forget me when you're doing your shopping spree *heee* do take care of yourself. dont skip any of your meals but im sure you wont cause you'll surely be going to those nice restaurant there and i know you wont miss the chance. sleep tight during the night, just look up to the stars on the sky if you miss me, cause ill be looking on it too, before i go to bed. have a safe journey, boyfie. im sorry that i cant send you to the airport, but ill surely pray for you and your family. send my regards to them. ill be waiting for you. ill be missing you. i love you, boyfriend ♥

; before you go, im sorry cause i lied, i said im not doing anything but the fact, im typing this smoothly so that you can hear me. bluehs ;d *hugs*